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Welcome 2012

2012-01-09T13:08:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum everyone~!

Can't believe it's 2012 already! I don't actually feel that it's 2012 because I work during eve on new year and new year day itself. Have to work mah.. double the pay!

Well, reflect on 2011.. Been a great great year. Treat my dad and sis to holiday in Batam. That's our first overseas holiday since a decade! Bought my mum an expensive birthday gift ever...Her bling2 jewellery. My family don't really practice celebrating birthday - but to get my mum this gift, felt that it was my greatest achievement so far. Abang met with a lot of accidents last year - had 3cm of its tail chop off and he fell from our 2nd storey house again! Of course, Abang survive that fall without any injury at all. It's true that they say cats have 9 lives! As Abang gets older, he gets more selenger but more manja!! As for Putri, she's getting slimmer.. ahem2! On diet la konon.. but she remain cute like Puss on the Boots. When you look into her big round pretty eyes, you will be mesmerize..hahahah...! Well, they both turn 5.5 years as of Dec 2011. Work has been fun.. being promoted as an assistant leader was my greatest achievement so far in my career life. Been also a great year for me and Irwan. We were engaged and our relationship has been smooth ride so far. I can't think of any major argument. You know, as relationship gets older.. You just have no time to create relationship drama.

As for this year, we are planning to buy a BTO flat which is just across my house! Haha.. Can't believe that we will be staying near..in fact too near to my parent's house. We actually did not plan to buy a house at all because we plan to live at Irwan parent's house but when I saw the old camp buildings were demolish, I knew HDB will bulid lotsa flats there. I really really.. pray hard that we will get that flat.. It's convenience.. just across the road, there's primary school. Opposite it's there's Sunshine Place and wet market is just one bus stop away. A walking distance from the flat, it's a Government High school. And lotsa child care center. With my family just one stone away, I can still stay in touch with them.. especially my cats! Being the youngest and probably the first one to get married (Amin..), family is my top priority - my sisters are like my friends and my cats are my companion. Irwan does not allow any single pet in the house but living with pets since a tender age of 6, how could I not live with these creatures? So still having to see Abang & Putri after settling down, it is such a blessing. Well, right now.. have to work hard to save more $ to settle down. Probably end of next year.. insyaAllah. At 25 next year, it will be the right time for me and Irwan who is 4 years my senior.

As for working life, I may not plan to change job because I like the working environment, have great colleagues, the job prospect suits my personality and I love working shift hour job because the feeling when I'm off on weekdays is different than going out on weekends. I never like to go out on weekends - the mall and rides are so packed! However, this job does not have great benefits - especially bonus. I need it - so that I can save faster. Will see..

Overall, 2011 was an awesome year..alhamdulillah. And hopefully same goes for this year. InsyaAllah.. amin!

Signing off,
Rohani

Irwan is no longer my boyfriend...

2011-12-11T06:23:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

I'm glad to announce that Irwan is no longer my boyfriend...but my fiance!

19 Nov 2011 was our 5th annivesary and what a perfect way to celebrate it by getting engaged on that day itself!

I was proposed 5 months before the day but I was kinda last minute in preparing. 2 weeks before the day, I just started to prepare the gubahan & berkat. All was made by myself (of course with the help of my sis):

Adidas watch & Emporio Armani wallet

Chelsea mini soccer ball and towel

Sony Digital Frame

Choc & Candy mosque

Fruit basket

Snack baskets

Chelsea vanilla cupcakes
(Rinazz D'lites)

Fruit tarts
(Sri Gubahan)

Cake
(Sri Gubahan)

Puff
(Sri Gubahan)

Snack baskets
(from my aunt)

Agar-agar
(from my aunt)

Bunga Rampai

Phew..! It took me sleepless night to complete this gubahan but it was all worth it! I never did gubahan before and my mum keep pestering me to get someone to do it but I insisted. Hopefully, when I get married and not working, I may wish to open online business to do it for gubahan.. InsyaAllah!

I thought I will be giving at least 8-9 hadiah, but turn out to be 15 in total (including the one given by my aunt).

As for the berkat, I want it to be simple but creative. I want it to be something that can be use in daily basis and eaten. After doing my homework online, I came across this youtube video on Towel Cupcake Tutorial. I've made over 100 of these!

And these are from the tunang:

We had an awesome day on 19 Nov. I was nervous but anxious to see my fiance. We never thought to came this far. Now, planning for marriage and saving, saving, saving!

Had other photos of guest and myself, but I do not wish to post it online. This is just a sneak peek! Make up and dress is by Klaseboer Bride's Mode.

People said that engagement period will be most challenging part of relationship before marriage. I pray that we will make it through. Insyallah.. we must!

Signing out,
Rohani

A month to go...

2011-10-19T08:57:00.001-07:00

1 more month to 5th Anniversary & Engagement Day!
.....You the best thing I ever had....

23rd Birthday

2011-08-19T10:47:00.000-07:00

Salam 'all...

Happy Ramadhan everyone! Although I know it's a bit too late as Hari Raya is just around the corner. Hehe...

Well, it's been months since I last update this blog. Everytime I plan to write something, I tend to delete it off because don't have time to complete it! -_- Nevertheless, I will never ever abondon this blog - I've used this URL since 2004 and has never changed it.

It's the first time that my birthday falls on the holy month and this is the 5th time I celebrate it with Irwan. We supposed to breakfast at Fish & Co. @ Changi Airport but was shocked that it is closed for renovation, as Irwan had book it 5 days earlier.. Argh! Thus, we had to proceed our breakfast at Breeks nearby.

I wouldn't make this a lengthy post, let the photos below do the talking...

Today, 19 Aug 2011 is our 4 years 9 months anniversary! I couldn't be much happier because... it will be exactly.....

Yup, yup! We will getting engaged on our 5th Anniversary! I know that I used to say, what's the point of engaged as it's no difference from being in a relationship. But to engage in our anniversary, that feeling is different! Like a membership 'upgrade' ! Haha..

His family masuk meminang way earlier. It's was on his 27th birthday (see? prefect time right?). Received cincin janji that was given by his mother. This ring was worn by his late grandmother. I had to place it in the middle was it will slid off easily from other fingers.

Insya-Allah will be getting married soon, but not so soon. Hehe..

My schedule will be packed right after raya to prepare for engagement. (;

Alhamdulliah, I have found the best man in my life.

Best Regards,
Rohani

Strangers, again

2011-04-27T12:34:00.000-07:00

I am amaze by the creativity of this short-film which actually connect to everyone who had/is in a relationship.

Irwan & I had reach stage 6 downhill during our 3.5 years. But Irwan did what that guy did in the video - is to recall the memories we had and apologized. If there's no stage 6, there would not be stage 7 where we at now. A year forward, I'm glad that we stay together and I never look back & regret.

There have to be an arguments in relationship. The outcome of arguments can be positive and negative. Try to always think optimistic and minimize being too negative. Negativity takes places during the arguement and we only did realize the positive thing after the arguement ended with a break up.

Few days ago, my friend asked me what do i like about my boyfriend? There's isn't any specific answers to it. I like who he is back then and now. What I like most is not who he is, but is how he handle our relationship - he had never gave up. And he has always been my best of the best friend I ever had.

In the video, at stage 7, the girl asked : To get married or break up?

Well, our answers would be...........

Salam,
Rohani

30 March 2011

2011-03-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Finally, after 5 long years... I finally graduate! Alhamdullilah... soon a diploma cert will be in my hands. But, what am I going to do about it anyway?

Time fly so fast that in a few weeks time, it will be one year I'm working in this security company. I'm planning to stay until my savings are enough. Have to do more OTs and work on PHs! I been working like mad for the past 11 months... Not that I'm stress, in fact I really enjoy my work. I've love learning new things at work...and supervisor has plan for me to take courses at work..Alhamdulillah.. this is the main reason why i choose work than school.

The last time I went out with a friend was last year. I've been spending most of time with my family, cats, Irwan and work. Occasionally having dinner with my colleagues. Oh gosh, I really need to catch up with my friends. I have no idea how's their life now. I did not even realise I did not call or text them for almost 5 months! -_-

Well life, there's nothing to complain about. I'm am truly grateful to be bless with great career, loving family, cutest cats & amazing boyfriend. What more could I ask for? Alhamdulillah..

Signing off,
Rohani

Resolution for 2011

2011-01-24T16:51:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

I am pretty contented with my life right now, syukur alhamdullilah. Compared to 2009, 2010 was been my great achievement so far. I know I should have posted this earlier. Finally, I have time to do so! Hah...

Work
I start to switch my job to a Customer Service Officer (Security) in April '10. My previous job was like really hell. When you worked in a small private company, u have to do basically every departments' job - from billing, admin, customer service, troubleshooting, basic HR work and etc - and get low pay. I can see the big difference when I am working in a big international company currently. You get the task that you applied for.

After 8 months working there, I am appointed as one of the PIC for Customer Service which was a surprise to me, because I not sure if I am lead the team. One day I got panicked when there isn't any team leader, supervisor and asst. team leader around to lead on that day and every responsibility was push to me. The team started asking me questions how to troubleshoot, to handle difficult customers and who to escalate the issue - alhamdulillah, I get to manage it all.

Currently, I am learning some new things - slowly shifting my duty more to admin customer service rather than taking everyday calls. In 3 months, it will be my 1st year in the company. My 2011 working life resolution is to hopefully get a higher salary, move up to become asst. team leader role or team leader and change contract position to full time position.

School
The flexibility of my work allows me to return to school. Repeating a module for the 3rd time is damn tiring but this time but I have never gave up even though I hate learning academically. I really hope I don't need to repeat anymore. *pray hard* Resolution for 2011, to graduate (eventually!). There's actually nothing much to say about school.

Family
4 days (12hrs) work week allows me to spend more time with my family, especially my 3rd sister. We've been going out almost every of my off days. Brought my parents to Johor. (after a decade, i finally went out of Singapore!) Treating my family to restuarant meal, buying something valuable for my mother, got my dad a hp, got my parents a pay-tv which they been wanting. It's not that i am boosting around but I can see the huge difference in 2009 there in my previous post, I keep complaining how financially tight I was. I am able to afford more now, but I still need to save for something bigger for the future. Resolution for 2011, spending quality time with family.

Relationship
I am extremely happy with my relationship with Irwan. Eventhough he's a pain in the ass, he's someone I believe I can depend on not only as a boyfriend but as a family man. My family has been more inviting to him than before, and so does his family as always. Our relatives have been asking our moms when are we going to get married. I am never going to rush into marriage just because we've been together for 4 years plus. Our aim is to have a great job, fulfill our family necessities, stable income and have more than enough money for marriage and after getting married. We already have resolution for 2011, you'll see....

Signing off,
Rohani

4th Anniversary

2010-11-19T06:13:00.000-08:00

Dear love,

Today is the day, I fell in love with you for 1440 days. I know it isn't easy for us to reach this far, but it was all worth it. We've been through many amazing transition in our lives together. I witness you, when you are about to enter army, during your army and now, working in full time job. And I'm glad that you've became a part of my journey throughout my poly years and into a working adult world. We've made through a pathway that was full of obstacles.

I remembered during our first few months together, I was so pissed off by your attitude that I've listed 10 things I hate about you and 10 things I want in a guy, that totally you do not have. You've kept that list for months and keep bringing it up, trying to be in the list of 10 things I want in a guy. After reaching through our first year, I realized that it was very silly of me, to dream on about a perfect guy. You've made me learn to see the imperfection perfectly. I began to love you for who you are and for who I am when I'm with you.

In our second year, we began struggling whether to keep this relationship going on and move on. At the point of time, I am so close to my best friends that I felt that do not need a boyfriend. You spent 5 days in camp, i hang out with my friends more than 5 days and we dated only once a week. Nevertheless, despite all those issues, I am truly glad that we did stay together. You've became not only by boyfriend, but my companion, my very best friend and someone I knew I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Even though there was a mere break up during our third year, I am extremely grateful to you that you have never let go. Amazingly, we are able to pull through this together ; fix back the broken heart by reminiscing all the wonderful memories we had together. That incident made our relationship even stronger than before. Believe me, if that incident didn't happen I seriously don't think things will change.

I thank you for the argument we had.
With that, we have better understanding & learn to communicate better.

I thank you for the times you've made me cry.
With that, you've made me a stronger woman. It's not worth to cry over small issue. But to talk and solve it together.

I thank you for the times we had to be apart.
With that, we realized that how much we need each other.

I thank you for the times we stop talking to each other.
With that, we realized that at times relationship needs to be given some space. Once done, I knew we will talk for hours and hours, non-stop.

I thank you for the times we've broke each other hearts.
With that, we mend it so well that it won't be that fragile.

And of course, I thank you for the laughter we had, the wonderful experience and the joy you bring to my life.

Lastly, I thank you for the learning process we had together and yeah, there's still more to learn!

I end this blog with,

......HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY...........
Irwan & Rohani
since 19.11.06

With love,

Rohani

Updates

2010-10-30T08:21:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I know... I know.. it's been a very long time since I last update my blog. This year schedule is very tight that I have to think twice before making appointment with my friends. The last time I went out with a friend was more than 2 months ago. My social life is dying, seriously. I have to squeeze my time for outing with family and Irwan. Lately, I've date Irwan for only half a day, once a wk...unlike last time, it's full day and more than once a wk. But I am grateful that our relationship still goes smoothly that coming next month, it will be our 4th year!! Woohoo.. time past by so fast that I have to save up as many $ as possible before he turn 30. And this year was the very first so-called 'overseas' outing with my family.. to Johor. The last time I went out from Singapore was more than a decade ago.

As for work, it's kinda easy and relax compared to the hectic work I had last year. I started this new job in April '10 as Customer Service Officer for an MNC alarm company. This month, I was appointed as one of the PIC - person in charge, for the customer service group. It was quite a shocked as there are many seniors before me. Nevertheless, alhamdulillah... I realize I learnt way faster in work environment compared to school. I like the challenge that motivates me to work harder, unlike school where you stare at the screen and staring at your faci while you stop yourself from daydreaming. Work keeps me awake and get going. I really enjoy my work although there some days, my ear hurts listening customers' screaming, I get used to it and had never take it to heart and never spoil my days.

Well, when it comes to school... I keep looking at my watch and sigh every single seconds. Yawn and daze. That four white walls are like prison to me. Semester 2 had just started, and I am repeating my repeat module for the 2nd time. Total of 3 times, I've taken this module over and over again. Honestly, I never get it till now. Why oh why, I am trap in this prison for 5 long years.. just because of that one module that I couldn't pull through. Calculations driving me mad and how on earth is PBL going to help us in solving mathematical problem?

I wish I could stop complaining about school if I want to get this done and over with. Till then, goodnight.

Salam,
Rohani

Jurong Bird Park date

2010-07-25T21:13:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

The last time I went to Jurong Bird Park was when I was a kid. If I'm not wrong, it will be 15 years ago. I can't even remember how it look like. Thus, Irwan took me on a wonderful date there.

The day started with a heavy rain; I really thought we have to cancel this plan. Fortunately, by the time we reached there, the rain has stopped.

So many tourists, the entrance was fully packed. Luckily, we manage to enter and was welcome with group with penguins. They really are very big than what I saw in TV.

We were then welcome by different groups of birds. Some of them are just flying around that we keep a look out to make sure they don't shit on us like flying. haha..

We merely miss the bird show. Only watch the last 5mins of it.

Feeling hungry, we stopped by to eat our breakfast that we prepared. Tuna sandwhich, BBQ chicken, tibits and chicken popcorn. We saw this two hungry birds, took the chicken bones that we threw in the trash bin. They were staring at us like we're eating.

Continue our bird trip...

Swan's baby at super cute! (see below)

A prefect picture! Love this waterfall environment with birds flying freely.

Bald ostrich.

We then the day shopping at IKEA. My plan is to survey computer chair and a table but I end up buying a kitchen knife -_-

Time fly very fast...too fast that I didn't realise that we are already 3 years 8 months. (;

Signing out,
Rohani

The Chicken Rice Shop & Omni Theatre

2010-07-15T21:46:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

We decided to spend $30 vivo voucher that my sister gave me at The Chicken Rice Shop (VivoCity). Had our lunch.

Overall, the food was good but not that fantastic. One great thing is that there's variety of chickens flavours and quantity is acceptable. The service should be improved. How can a two young kid, i think they are less than 15 years old, work as a server and they both are new. I saw them get screamings by customers due to the slow service. Well, not their fault because they are new but I think they should hire more servers.

We then headed off to Omni Theatre at Science Centre. I have never been Omni Theatre before that the Forces of Nature film was terrific! What's more with the 'globe' surroundings, better than 3D, makes me feel like I am in the film itself. Great..great..great! And very educational except for the kids who sit beside me, who keep talking to his mum throughout the film. Irritating!

Exit from Omni Threatre... to space.

Irwan & I was shocked that there's this animal at Mars. Well, I did google it when I go home. Found nothing. Is this true or not?

The last time I went with Irwan to Science Centre was 3 years ago... I think we were only 6 months of relationships. Can't believe we went there again after more than 3 years!

Signing off,
Rohani

escorted

2010-07-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

The start of my date with Irwan was totally horrible, but it was a greatest experience we ever had - being escort out of a Woodlands Checkpoint with CIA police by our side. How great!

We actually planned to have our lunch NEAR Woodlands Checkpoint, the coffee shops at the busy Sheng Shong place. I told him we can took a bus at Kranji, which took shorter route than taking the bus at Woodlands that we have taken before. I've went there once with my mum.

While waiting for bus at Kranji, this foreigner came and ask for Singapore dollar to top up his ez-link card as his only have ringgit and there was no money changer nearby. In the midst of that, the bus came and we quickly board the bus without noticing the bus number. We left the man at the bus stop.

The bus we took stops at Woodlands Checkpoint. That was when we realised we may have taken the wrong bus. We wanted to get out of the place, so that we could walked to the coffee shop nearby. Unfortunately, there was absolutely no exit expect for exit via Johor -_-

We asked the security officer there for the way out. He told us to check with Customer Service center. We asked the officer there for the exit, and she took our identification cards away. She told us to wait for while, saying that a police officer will escort us to the exit area.
Of course, we were very shocked. How great.. first, we took the wrong bus, unable to exit the place and now.. we were being escorted.

While waiting, that bulldog face of Irwan fired up. Argued that he shouldn't have agreed with me to take the bus from Kranji. And when we saw the man who we left at the bus stop, at the Checkpoint, Irwan started blaming him because if not because of the man, we could have notice the bus number. Alright, that's Irwan. Well, we argued while waiting. I told him not to make things worse by blaming other people, and it is just a bad luck for today.

But lucky for us, we are not the only one who took the wrong bus, there's another Chinese couple in the same situation. Phew! The police took us the a waiting room, i think he's entering our particulars... then only after 30mins, we finally manage to exit the building and have our IC back. For that 30minutes, we argued..only after we get out, his bulldog's face has started to fade away and he apologise for his reaction. Well, I expect that to happen - i mean he apologizing me only after problem have solved.

After a while, we joke about that incident. It's funny how we went through that process blaming each other when we are stuck in a security building. We threaten each other, that I will go home and he will go shopping for furniture himself. Haha.. In the end, we still continue our plan, makan at the coffeeshop, shop for his furniture, my bag and shoe. We have fun in the end.

One thing I am amuse our this relationship is that action is never louder than words. Even though in times of stress and trouble, we say to each other that we will not be there, this relationship cannot go on...bla bla bla.. in the end, our heart tells the opposite thing we've said. We will always hold on in times of bad no matter how bad we argued. That's what makes the relationship sweet and spicy.

Is not that I'm trying to boost about this. I just that to share that not all moments in relationship are as romantic and sweet as we all expected. We get hurt, disappointed and cry like mad. Most importantly that never leave a sucky situation with one party alone. Irwan does not leave me alone when we both told to wait to be escorted. We go through this together even though our words hurt one another.

I'm glad to have him by my side for the last 4 years.

Love,
Rohani

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY!

2010-06-25T17:46:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Starts the day with Irwan renting a car and picking me up. He always wanted to drive on his birthday. And it's been a year ago since he drive.
We stopped for a special lunch at Eatzi Gourmet @ Safra.

The food was sought of okay. The ice cream taste really like those in Magnolia tub. -_- I still prefer Swensen's or Mad Jack!

Nevertheless, it was a decent meal we enjoyed together. I think the last time we went to restaurant together was last year.. Haha, we always eat at food court.

The view outside Eatzi, in Safra was superb. Rock climbing, huge swimming pools, small parks..

Well, after that, Irwan rode about 2 hours to ECP. Haha, it wasn't suppose to be that long journey. We lost our way, that we have to take a u-turn from Yishun to Bukit Timah then to Expressway.

We sat on the beach's rock and surprise him with his 26th birthday hamper. I took me an hour to design and create it yesterday night!

Last year, I gave him a gold colored hamper. This year, theme is blue.

His birthday ended up great. Love the car ride with us singing loudly with our irritating voice.

Time past by fast, I mean too fast. This is the 4th time we celebrate birthdays together. I can still clearly remember the first time I celebrate Irwan's 22nd birthday in his house. Now, I am his age when he first met me.

I hope we can celebrate future birthdays together, till our last birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRWAN, LOVE YOU!
may you be bless with great fortune and love.

Love,
Rohani

love fight

2010-06-01T11:46:00.000-07:00

These are the 2 movies that I've watched over and over again for years. And I've watched it again today..

From The Notebook, I've found this conversation is so true when it comes to love & fight:

Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch!
Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we are already fighting.
Noah: Well that's what we do. We fight. You tell me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are being a pain in the ass. Which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two second rebound rate and you go back doing the next pain in the ass thing.
Allie: So what.
Noah: So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day.

Believe me, both parties will definitely get hurt after a heated argument. What matter most is how both parties heal the wounds. (:

Love;

2010-05-18T19:54:00.000-07:00

3 years 6 months <3

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-08T20:58:00.000-07:00

4 places in a day

2010-05-01T23:50:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

The Pinnacle @ Duxton

Irwan & I went to my then colleague, Vinna's house-warming. Little did we know that her new house it located at the famous and costly real estate, which is at The Pinnacle.

It's been a month since I last meet Vinna, Jian, Jowie, Young, Iris & of coz, my employeer!

The catered food was super great... Big sambal prawns, sweet & sour fish.. the dish at the most front of this picture, was superb.. sweet & spicy chicken!

I love Chinese halal food compared to Malay food. Not too spicy, not too oily.

And this is my gossip friend at work. There's not even one day we don't complain about work to each other. I miss gossiping with her. Even now, I've left the company. She still keep up update on the latest gossips! (;

And we had our lunch there, Vinna invited us to a terrific place at The Pinnacle:

Guess where we went next?

We are at the top of the building!

And it's a park!

Cannot miss out taking photos with wonderful people, and an amazing scenery! (=

From left: My boyfriend, me, Iris, Jowie, Vinna, Jian, boss's wife, boss & Young.
All are my ex-colleague except Irwan of course.

Haha.. look like as if we went to overseas trip.
Oh gosh.. I really look very fat here! -_-

The seats we are sitting in, is facing to the sea view. If it was in the night, confirm romantic!

Keppel. Though it is a trading port, it's not that noisy as having a construction nearby.

Though it's a hot & sunny day, taking a stroll there was worth it.

Look at the landscape. It's like we are in another city!

I love this candid picture of us (:

Its the tallest housing estate floor I've been to.

Vinna's house was small but feel so spacious. It's really like my dream house. Every lightings are those crystal lightings, including inside their room. Oh ya, their masterbedroom view is really like those in hotel, facing the sea!!! ^0^

And I am so in love this the balcony area. It faces the sea too, thus you will feel the strong wind like you are at the beach. Aiyah, I'm so so so jealous you know! hahahaha..

Photo from the ground floor to the top of the building.
Damn tall la!

I love this housing estate. I really want to go there again!!!

Millenia Walk mall
Next, Irwan & I went to Millenia Walk mall to redeem goodie bags..

There's free healthy vanilla soya bean drink, diet bar snack, vouchers and etc.

The Helix Bridge

From there, we then headed to the newly-open bridge. Extremely crowded!!

Just look at me, smile till barely see my pupils.

The place was fantastic, but not the view.. coz most sites are still under constructions ):

We can only access 3/4 of the bridge as there are constructions at the end of the bridge. However, we can still kaypoh to look what's on the other side.

Like this orange makcik behind Irwan. Haha, looks like real.. but it's actually a cupboard cut-off photo of that makcik.

Makansutra

As we took a walk from Helix to Esplanade, in between we saw the Makansutra eating place. We didn't even know that it exists there!

Ape lagi, makan dinner la..

Finally, we headed to Esplanade area..

4 places in a day! Great date with Irwan after more than a week since we saw each other.

This year, we will not be going out that much since my work schedule and his are different. Furthermore, we always grab the opportunity to work overtime. Nevertheless, biar susah2 dulu..senang2 kemudian.. concentrate on work to save $ to build a better future. (:

I love you, Irwan...

-3 years, 5 months-

Signing off,
Rohani

New job

2010-04-30T19:59:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Alhamdulillah... I finish my 2-weeks job training!!! Erm... only after I took the re-test of theory paper. Haha.. I had my test on Thursday, an open-book test. When my trainer is away for meeting, I secretly go around the table, asking the seniors for answers (; Haha, got 72/100. But the passing marks is 80. So one of the senior, go through the corrections with me and told me to just memorize the answers. The re-test paper is actually the same as the previous one. So I just write down the answers I memorize, and ta-da.. 92/100. Haha..

1st week of training was so theory, that I felt very sleepy. When my trainer goes for a meeting, I sat beside the seniors and watch them doing the job. There's a point of time, I sleep an hour straight beside a senior.

2nd week of training was more of practical - troubleshooting and on-the-job training. I start to pick up calls but trainer has to watch over me. After few days, I get used of calling people and make myself feel more relax that I walk around the office barefoot.

In my previous job, in a small company, my colleagues always remind me to wear my shoes. And I always sit 'bersila' on the office chair. Haha.. I brought that habit along in my new job, an MNC company, a big one with international clients.

I still adjusting myself working from a private small company to an international big company. There are huge differences in terms of work prospect, discipline & management. I do miss my previous job. When I quit, I'm worried about who is going to fix the printer, do follow-ups, make own wise decision & etc. In a small company, you have to everything outside your job scope. But in a big company, you get the one and only task you assigned for & the benefits are much worth it, like company transport, allowance, prayer room, performance bonus & etc.

I can't wait to start work next week, yahooo.. 4 days work week only!! but 12hours per day. -_-

Take care everyone!

Signing off,
Rohani

Selfish

2010-04-16T07:31:00.000-07:00

Before she starts her job after one year, I told my mum,"I am very sure that she finds a job only for herself."

And when the bill came in, my other sister told her to pay it which is 4 times lesser than what she has to pay. I'm very frustrated with the answer.

She cried like a baby and whine, "I do not have money to pay!"

Then I remind my mum, "I told you, she work only for herself, not for the family."

And you know what my mum said, "I'll pay."

It's getting too much already.

My mum argued that at least that idiot has started to work. I told her, "It's still the same if she works or doesn't. She thinks of herself and wants us to support her instead of she, being the eldest, not supporting anyone of us here. I don't really understand why she has to cry. Whenever got problems, all she does is to cry instead using her brain to think. I don't get it why she wants to work less when she has the highest education among all of us. It is just waste of money spending on her education. I just don't get it why you don't see the big picture."

I am not angry at my mum. I was never angry at her. But I am really frustrated from day one, that that idiot always cry to get sympathy ''vote''. It's like I have a youngest sibling instead of being youngest.

Must see

2010-04-16T07:29:00.001-07:00

This is an awesome piano player entertainer!

Love;

2010-04-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

4 more days to our 3 years 5 monthsary.

Random photos

2010-04-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Went out with Irwan yesterday, to collect his lucky draw prizes & send his hp for fixing.

We then headed to Orchard, doing nothing. Taking random pictures of building and ourselves, eating ice-cream & kfc.

So here it is...

It's getting really bored at home. It's been two weeks since I last work. I only went out with Irwan & tutoring.

There was a time I had friends to go out with, now, they are either busy with work or I've lost contact since all the contacts in my hp were erased after hp is fixed.

And it's been a week plus for me to start my new work. The agent did said I am selected and confirmed but for me to start work is still under pending status.

Sigh.

I am looking forward to work as I felt unhealthy mentally & physically at home.

Salam,
Rohani

When vocab goes wrong...

2010-04-11T19:42:00.001-07:00

There's a time when Irwan is very confident, too confident I must say, that he use the wrong vocabulary.

Rice coooker??
He had some dissatisfaction with his colleague and said, "Kite tak suke orang kacau rice cooker." "Huh? Rice cooker ape plak?", I asked as the topic he said does not relate to a rice cooker.
He confidently said, ''Kacau rice cooker la.. tu pun tak tau. Kan yang omputih ckp, gaji tu mcm rice cooker"
Oh, now I get what this saying to say & was amused. "Alah.. Rice bowl la awak!"

Humble & boastful
Sometimes, Irwan is just being boastful of his achievements that he keep repeating the same thing. I told him, "Awak ni... kena be humble tau."
He: Eh, mmg kite humble ape.."
I: Huh? Mane ade. Asyik show-off je.
He: Err, humble tu ape?
I: Humble tu rendah diri.
He: Ape show-off tu dlm bahasa omputih ape?
I: Boastful.
He: Haha.. kite nk ckp, kite mmg boastful pe. Bukan humble.
Tu la, case boastful sangat, sampai tak tau ape vocab dia use.

Cinta Monyet is not Monkey Love, it's Puppy Love
I was chatting with my best friend, complaining about relationships.
I: One day, he will realise that it's just a monkey love and regret about this.
She: Oooo.. Rohani, it's not monkey love.
I: True what.. confirm monkey love.
She: No, what I mean it's that, it should be called Pupply Love.
Hahahah.. coz I translate Malay to English, Cinta Monyet = Monkey Love but it should be called Pupply Love instead. If English translate to Malay, Cinta Anjing!!!

Putri's reaction

2010-04-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

This is exactly how Putri reacts when someone carries her:

How can you not carry her?
She's sooo fat, flurry, round, chubby & cute!

New Job

2010-04-06T10:59:00.000-07:00

Today, I've got myself a new job! (:

Last day!

2010-03-31T10:36:00.000-07:00

Finally, after nearly one year of enough learning & patience, I left the company, leaving 5 people behind.

I'm very surprised & pleased to get a pleasant farewell dinner & an expensive Baby-G watch from my employer. Boss said it was a pity to let me go and offered me a part-time position in the company, but I turn it down. It's wasn't about the money any longer, it's about the company. I saw it suffering.

There's never a time boss scolded me or even gave me a stern look even though I always came late to work. I mean really late, 30 mins late. And not even one staff or the manager, gave me a big fat scolding. It's really weird. Nevertheless, even though I'm the number 1 latecomer, I've always complete what I did to do, and help others even when I'm really busy.

There are lots of experience I gain when working for this company. Take initiative - Don't wait for order to be instruct when you know what you can do. Independent - if no one teach you, find out yourself. Most important... Always keen to learn - Keep learning even it is out of the job scope. I've learn how to fix a printer technically when everyone keeps complaining about it. I've learn how to propose new ideas to sales team and get it done, even though I'm in the operations department.

I don't know why, I've always learn better & quicker by doing it, rather than seeing it. I guess that's why I fail in school (again & again).

I'm always proud when I saw someone who I taught or guide, is doing well when I myself, aren't proud that I'm always failing.

Nevermind..

I'm doing it again. This is my final chance & I cannot afford to lose it.

I still do miss doing my job at the company, but I can't stay there if I want to widen my experience level.

The tickling habit

2010-03-29T10:25:00.000-07:00

"I had a habit of tickling my boyfriend's chest when he's being silly.
Until..one day, I forgot that my girlfriend is not my boyfriend that I accidentally tickles her breast."
- Rohani

Results

2010-03-26T23:07:00.000-07:00

"I'm doing it all over again, for the 2nd time. Shoot..!"

Family support in relationships

2010-03-19T11:32:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I had fun outgoing out with him & his cousins on the Saturday night, at Night Safari. Although I felt very frustrated with Irwan that early noon.

We walked in the safari instead of taking the tram ride. There aren't any pictures of animals because we can't take photos with flash light on and thus, pictures taken were all in dark screen.
It was unfortunate for me that my contact lenses were giving me problems and I can't even see the animals in the dark. Haha..

Neverthless, the animal show was terrific, fun & interesting.

We end the night with one of this cousin's dinner treat to MacDonald's and his uncle's ride home in a van.

Below picture was taken a week ago before Night Safari:

It was his aunt's birthday, celebrated at the void deck.

When I look back at the pictures taken with his family and him, I felt really accepted. Moreover, invitations and outing from and with his relatives makes me feel completely fortunate to have blessings from all of them.

Few days ago, I had a thought of letting go all this feelings and memories. There wasn't any chance for Irwan to change my mind as my decision has been so fixed that apology was unacceptable even after being begged.

Until... I think about his mother. His mother was so stern to Irwan to never let me go even though I was the one who wanted it. I never did really tell every problems he created, to his family nor his friends until that day where I really felt I needed to when things does not change as he promised.

Fortunately, our relationship was saved. Now, my heart really feel at ease after 2 weeks for sleepless night. At this point of time, I realize how strong is his family support towards our relationship.

Even though, I did said to Irwan, "I don't deserve you. I deserve a better guy than you.'', I know it wasn't true enough. Irwan had given to me everything I need to feel that I deserve true happiness in a relationship. Out of all, there's only one thing he did, that I felt I don't deserve this kind of treatment at all.

And because of that one thing, I felt the urge to leave him. In the end, it was just his big mistake that needs time to be solved entirely.

Overall, I am still fortunate to have Irwan by my side his temper, over cautiousness & lame jokes. He has always been trying his best to keep this relationship alive...

...and that's why we are planning for something big next year! *shh*

HAPPY 40TH MONTHSARY!!!!

With love,
Rohani

That's love

2010-03-06T07:31:00.000-08:00

There's a point of time I felt that my boyfriend had PMS. Even though, he doesn't.
He will go moody all of a sudden and then blame me for everything.
I'll get confused.
That's the time, I felt like strangling him.

In our 3 years plus, there's always a point of time
where we gave up thinking that there's no way we can make it.
Fortunately, in less that 24hours, we regret
and everything went back to normal.

In that 24hours
when everything you thought you can forget,
in your heart,
you know, you can't.
There's seems to be a strong feeling inside
that it's impossible to find someone else
better than him/her
no matter how terrible is the fight.

That's love.

Percuma : Samsons

2010-03-03T08:07:00.000-08:00

Percuma
Semua ini percuma
Bila masih ada air mata
Tak sanggup
Sungguh aku tak sanggup
Jika masih sakit yang kau beri
Berakhir sudah atau aku akhiri saja

Tak mungkin
Tak akan pernah mungkin
Bila masih ada pilu tersimpan
Terjatuh
Dan aku pun terjatuh
Jika masih perih yang tercipta
Berakhir sudah atau aku akhiri saja

Reff:
Aku yang merasakan
Aku yang menyimpan
Aku yang tersakiti
Meski tak kau menyadari
Akankah waktu ‘kan menjawabnya

Percuma
Semua ini
Percuma haa…

Percuma
Semua ini percuma
Bila masih ada air mata
Tak sanggup sungguh aku pun tak sanggup
Jika masih sakit yang kau beri
Berakhir sudah atau aku akhiri saja

Akankah waktu ‘kan menjawab nya

Abang & Putri updated pics!

2010-03-01T06:44:00.000-08:00

Double Chin issues

2010-02-22T08:03:00.000-08:00

I bet no one will take a glance at Mona Lisa if she has double chin.

I hate gaining weight because I don't like seeing my face in the mirror with an 'extra' chin. Makes my face so round.

Thus, I search in an internet for solutions, here's what I've got:

1. Neck exercise - It somehow work because you can really feel your chin fats are being pulled up instead of it being saggy.

2. Chew a gum - I don't believe it works!

3. Lose weight - Duh, definitely! But I want a faster solution, can?

4. A face massage? - Saw it in an online shopping sight. This is totally tedious!
5. Finally, my own experiment:

This really works! Just slowly massage your double chin upwards, do it day and night and you can see the different within 3 days! (but.. I can't guarantee you). I works fine for me. After I apply the cream on my neck, I do the neck exercise stated in solution 1.

Whatever it is, I am still working on solution 3, my thighs are betting bigger!

Sungei Buloh date

2010-02-16T06:21:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

A date with Irwan @ Sungei Buloh, which we've been looking forward to go since last year.

Since wednesday Irwan had off day, and I no longer need to go to school.. we grabbed this opportunity.

A cheap fee indeed, only at $2.00 for adult, $0.50 for student.

A long 4 hours walk under the sun. Literally, walk on stones, sand and wooden platform. But the scenery is awesome, especially the hut with sea beneath it and view of Johor.

I am glad it didn't rain.

End of the sunny day walk with ice kacang, ice cream & perfect western meal.

Siblings outing

2010-02-15T20:00:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

CNY holiday was a blast! I really had a long weekend and relaxing week.

Before watching Percy Jackson & the Lighting Theif, my sisters, cousin (Syafiq) & I ate at Swensen. Punyalah sesat nak carik Swensen in ION Orchard. You can only take the lift there, at basement 1.

Though it was the first day of CNY, the Shaw cinema was pack with huge crowd, even the Chinese wearing Cheongsam were seen there.

I would give the movie rating as 2/5.

Seriously, it's not worth it at all. It's like a small scale Harry Potter movie that is long-winded and expected ending, a pure fairlytale storyline. I expect a big war like Narnia version, or even better like The Lord of the Rings. This movie, was nothing compared to that.

But it's okay if you are a kid below 12 years old.
(:

We then had a snack at Boat Quay while waiting for my sisters' friend to tag a long for fun fair ride.

Speaking of Boat Quay, I remembered when I was 15 years old, I asked around asking where's Boat Quay. Most of the strangers looked puzzled, as I pronounced Boat Quay as "Boat Kueh". Little did I know that it should be pronounce as "Boat 'key'". -_-

At 8pm, they arrived. We headed off to Esplanade where there's a big funfair called Uncle Ringo. The rides were crazy! I played the bumper car and skyride, where it's a big 360 degree swing.

The skyride was freaking crazy! The first few turns was okay, but after that speedy turns with the seats lifted in the sky, I closed my eyes, only taking a few seconds peak.

Even when I shut my eyes, I still shouted like a mad woman, hanging on the dear seat, drooling. I was too afraid to let go of my hands just to wipe my saliva. I felt that there's a drooling dog in me.

When the ride ended, I can't even walk straight. Wah...pening!

Nevertheless, it was the best crazy ride I ever experience. Universal Studios, here I come!! Haha..

Ending the night with that, was worth it. We all went home, talking about the sky rides along the way. It was great!

Salam,
Rohani

2010-02-12T06:05:00.000-08:00

One by one they walk out the door. I guess, the company have enough trouble that most of the staffs can't handle it anymore.

I'm walking out the door by end of March! Yeah!!

Quick Updates

2010-02-06T00:04:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

Didn't post for a month now. Was very busy with couple of stuffs; house renovation, work & school!
Here's a quick update:

1. House renovation almost complete
As Dad turns 55 on 17th Dec 2009, he used his CPF to renovate our house's 2 bathrooms and all
the entire house's floorings. Living room flooring's is glossy beige flat cement while our bedrooms flooring's are made up of wood. All these were done by Hamid & Son's contractors within less than 3 weeks! While waiting for the renovation to be done, our family moved to cousin's house few blocks away. The main renovations are now done except for wall painting which we all did it as a family. My room is now pink! Instead of the old ugly yellow. Hah..
I need new bedsheets and pillow to make my bedroom fully revamp!

2. Parents sought of 'adopt' our cousin
As said in the previous paragraph, my family stayed in our cousin house while waiting for the renovations to be complete. My sisters & I used to be very close with these cousin since we were kids. However, as we grow up and busy with school then work, we did not get in touch often. When we moved temporarily to their house, we bond back. This time, with their youngest 12 years old brother. Their mum just passed away last year and their dad re-married thus did not stay in the same house with them. Few days after my family moved back to our house, his dad (my pakcik) came to request if we could look after his son till he's mature enough to live by his own. And so we did. He's been in our house for a week now & we already treat him as our own family. I do not know how long my parents are going to nurture him but I bet it's going to be long enough.

3. Last day of school
Today was the last UT and it was suck. I do not know which formula to use and which numbers to input. Pray hard I will not repeat again...!

I've change my blog skin to XML template. Still under construction.

Best Regards,
Rohani

The killer sleeper

2010-02-05T08:00:00.000-08:00

Every night, Abang, my cat will sleep with me on my bed. He will still sleep with me even though I always snores loudly and 'tido nakal' (means keep moving around on the bed while sleeping w/o realizing).

Today, I almost killed Abang. Abang tido terlentang. And I was sleeping beside him. I was so sleepy that I took my pillow and place it right infront of Abang's face until he meows. I think he was trying to catch a breath. Haha..

I thought it was a big teddy bear that Irwan gave me. When I removed my pillow, he still continues to sleep beside me till the next morning. -_-

Smiling Dog

2010-02-04T14:00:00.000-08:00

This dog actually smile! Just look at its mouth. It only smiles when it sees its owner.

New Year Resolution

2009-12-31T08:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
....Welcome 2010...

Graduate from Poly
Get a new job as an educator or in customer service industry
Save at least 8k
Learn to cook
Improve Nadirah's grade
Learn Mandarin
Practice healthy lifestyle
Go overseas at least once (last time I went out of Sg was more than a decade back)
Re-vamp my room
Buy at least one branded item for myself (I never had one before, really)

Happy Birthday Cik Saimah

2009-12-26T08:19:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

Wonderful dinner with Irwan's family @ Fig & Olive in conjuction of Irwan's mum birthday.

Semoga panjang umur & dimurahkan rezeki.
Agar sihat2 selalu & sentiasa kelihatan anggun
seperti awek muda..amin!

Gift for Irwan's mum. A few days later, I bought the same one for myself. Haha, addicted to the sweet parfum smell.

This is one of the reason why I stayed with you because
you've make me feel important.
Thanks love!

Wassalam,
Rohani

Logistics Fail

2009-12-16T07:09:00.000-08:00

I can't stop laughing during and after I watched this video:

Poor donkey!

Repeat student teaching a straight A student?

2009-12-04T06:55:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

There's thousand of reasons why I love teaching. Why I been tutoring kids voluntary and as job since 2005. Believe it it as nothing to do with whether I am smart or not. It's all about the teacher's passion that reflects through the student's result. It's not about a straight A's teacher producing a straight A student or a failed teacher produce a failed student.

I am not a failure. I am the result of success from a failure.

Okay, I am not using to boost myself but I am trying to make a point here that teaching has nothing nothing to do with a teacher's school grades but the attitude and willingness.

I was assigned to 2 students this year. They are totally opposite student. One is notorious the other is obedient. One is talkative and hyper the other is shy and quiet. One hates school the other loves school. One reflects me now the other reflects me in the past.

I used to love school when I was in primary and secondary but I hated it when I am learning something I am not interested in. That's the main reason why I am a repeated student this year.

Nadirah, my primary 1 student scored straight A's in all her subjects and is in top 4 in her class. She's improved from 2 a's 1b and top 9. She's a bright kid. I used to be like her, really. She is so motivated to learn and that's the reason why I will continue teaching her in 2010.

The other is Istiqamah, my primary 3 student. She's like me now, who hated school and her results were just borderline. One advice I gave her is that, there's always other way for you to be successful rather than scoring straight A's for school. I know you can do that, I am see a successful woman in you. You may make mistakes now, but I hope you learn from it. Making mistakes and learning from it is the best education you can ever had in your entire life. I did not hear from her, yet. But no matter what the results it, failure or passed, I still know she will soon find her own ways.

I am not tutor who force the student to study. For Nadirah, she always keen to learn who I motivate her every lessen so she won't get bored. For Istiqamah, I try to make the lessen as creative as possible by bringing my laptop and play math/eng/science quiz online. If she do not want to study, I will not argue and I will either let her do her own stuff and tell stories to make her understand that life is not based on report book. I may give a wrong message but sometimes I do feel that kids tend to not like school more if we keep scolding them that they are stupid, lazy, troublesome, failure & etc.

I am not ashamed to go for teaching interview and told them I used to be a repeat student. I am not ashamed to also tell them that since I have been a failure, I have help others to be successful.

I've read an article that top NUS students are given the top priority to go for interview. -_- What the heck? They think top student = top employees = top companies? It was never like that. Why interview the owner of the companies, trust me, some of them can't even speak English. But... these owners have a creative brain that think big and rich, that's why they are owners. A banker will never asked for report book but financial report. That's when you know who is smarter.

Alright, I shall stop here now. Can't go on anymore. Otherwise, it will be a 24hour long entry.

Salam,
Rohani

Aloe Vera Challenge

2009-12-02T19:40:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

I've been having pimples breakout once every week. But the small pimple but a huge big lump of pimples appearing on the cheeks. I never had this kind of horrible pimple breakouts before, until I start to work full-time. Stress you know!

I started using every kind of facial cream and soap but it doesn't really work, especially to reduce redness and scars! Lots of scars on my cheeks! I usually cover the pimple using concealer but I wish to remove the scars permanently.

Thus, after doing some research on the internet on how to reduce or remove pimple scars, I came across aloe vera gel:

Above video shows a very good examples on how to extract the gel from Aleo Vera plant & apply it on your skin. There's a lot a positive comments stating that this gel really cure pimples.

See this link too: CLICK HERE

Try goggling on benefits of Aloe Vera gel, and you can find more than 10 usage of it beside curing pimples. It can cure cuts, burns and moisturize your hair! Great isn't it?

So today, I bought the Aloe Vera plant at pasar malam for only $12 and apply it on my skin.

I am going to apply this gel once or twice every day for this month. I will sure to update the before and after pictures if it works!

So keep reading my blog to see the results!

Good night.

Salam,
Rohani

Selamat Bertunang DJ Zaza

2009-11-28T22:32:00.000-08:00

SELAMAT BERTUNANG DJ WARNA ZAZA MAJID!

I went to DJ Zaza's engagement ceremony yesterday afternoon with Irwan. She's actually Irwan's cousin. Known her before she became DJ of Warna.

I can say that it's quite a high-class sought of engagement ceremony which lasted till Ishak. Lots of crowd gathered in her house waiting for their turned to take pictures with her.

What I enjoyed the most is being around with Irwan's family including his mum's relatives. They make me feel that I'm one of them. To me, having a good relationship with your partner is not enough. It is important to me & Irwan is to have a good relationships with everyone in our family (both sides). I don't know why but I feel that if I don't know my boyfriend's family, there's no way I could trust him and stay on a relationship. Thus, a good family relationship is my first priority I look for in a guy because it reflects their future relationships with your partner.

Everyone in his family kept asking us, when is our turn to get engaged. Well, just say before Irwan's turns 30. Not engaged, but married. Don't have plan to get engaged because I don't see any difference in engagement and relationships. Maybe engagement may stop those makcik pakcik's gossip but in the end is the fulfillment of promise. I rather choose a promise that I believe in without spending on it.

I shall upload the pictures here after I get it from Irwan.

Have a great weekend!

Best Regards,
Rohani

My YouTube marathon

2009-11-27T07:00:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha! I hope you guys enjoy your day.

Well, not for mine. Just sit at home and laid watching YouTube since morning.

It's been months I waited for Ketika Cinta Bertasbih to be uploaded in YouTube. View synopsis here. The movie is not shown in Singapore cinemas and I can't find their DVDs here. Finally, after long wait... someone did upload the movie in YouTube.

A good movie though but the storyline is quite slow and maybe complicated. And the ending will be continue in Ketika Cinta Bertasbih 2. It's already been publish on September in Indonesia but still, it's not shown here. I can't wait to watch the it!! Argh..

Another Indonesia movie I watched titled Sepuluh. View the sypnosis here. Storyline is really2 very interesting and it is based on a true story. A must to watch!

Besides watching movies on the internet, I relaxed my mind by watching funny/banned/creative advertisement. I found this one is the most outstanding of all advertisement I saw today:

Finally, I've been watching Equals 3 since last month. It discuss about the various viral video in YouTube and some of them are really2 very funny. Should watch!

I'll update more once I find more interesting videos on the internet, alright!

Salam,
Rohan

Can't wait for New Moon

2009-11-24T04:48:00.000-08:00

I am so looking forward to New Moon, this December. Especially when it comes to Jacob's body!! I swear that this is the first time, I am crazyl over an actor's HOT HOT HOT body!! hahaha..

Can't you believe that he is just 17?!

Freak, wish Irwan owns his body. Please.

Haha.

3rd year Anniversary celebration

2009-11-19T18:51:00.000-08:00

Salam all

It was a special day for Irwan & I on 19.11.09. Our relationship turned 3 years old. Alhamdulillah.. I am extremely glad that we came this far.

We celebrated it on the 15th Nov, Sunday. He picked me up from my doorstep and off we go for breakfast at MacDonald's.

BREAKFAST, 10AM

We then headed to Esplanade where we conduct the exchange gifts ceremony.

GIFT CEREMONY at 12pm

Choc, loves! Another cert for 3rd year. I still kept the 1st year cert he made which makes me laugh so bad.
And this is my special gift for him. Especially handmade cupcakes with our edible photos on top of it. Bought it at Multiply RinazzDiltes and it tasted sooo goooood!

Yum! Yum!

I have to lick my face off, haha.. the cream was all over it!

It really break our heart to eat the cupcakes,especially when I have to break the heart!

Well, my 2nd gift to him was almost the same concept as what he had given me. Which is our 3rd year cert! Hahah.. But I've made it into a jigsaw puzzle form. Thanks to Su, who help me me design it.

120 pieces of jigsaws

To make his task easier, I've numbered each pieces.
Haha.. Guess what? Irwan joint the pieces only by numbers, not by the pictures. -_-

Last few pieces to go!!

Complete!

His record of 120 jigsaw pieces (with the help of numbers at the back) is 1/2 hour!!

Since both of us received certificates from each other, we decided to have a Gift Certificate Ceremony together:

2012 movie @ 2:20pm

Amazing movie..! Confirm your eyes will glued to the screen hoping that the characters will reach to the destination where they can save themselves. Must watch!

POPEYE @ Singapore Flyer; 5.30pm

This is our first time eating Popeye. I must say that we both are not satisfied with the service given. And will never ever eat at Popeye again! Firstly, the sauce counter top was way too high. Secondly, we had to wait 5 minutes for our burger and they did not send it to us after 5 minutes. Cashier did not mention that we had to take it ourselves and therefore, we only had it after 10 minutes. Thirdly, no tap water and basin. They think we eat the chicken by fork and spoon? They did not even provide the utensils. And we have to go outside Popeye to use the public toilet to wash our hands. The good are great but service is what makes the customer wants to go again.

Oh ya, and lastly, we did drop a feedback to the management. It's been a week and still no reply. I've google Popeye complaints, and there's negative feedback especially the branch located at Sg Flyer.

I know I may sound like a customer who is hard to please but I do expect a better service when the meal cost are higher than those KFC or MacDonald. At least their service standard are better with good facilities.

YAKULT RAINFOREST @ 6.30pm

Found this turtle sesat at the walkway. I decided to help him go back to his ''home'' which is the pond! He survived!

SINGAPORE FLYER @ 7pm

This is our first time in Singapore Flyer. It was romantic where we get to see the sunset and when we reached the top, there's tiny bright lights everywhere.

Had fun with Irwan. He's my best friend, my companion and my everything even he can be a pain in the ass. Haha..

I love you whole-heartedly, Irwan.

Goodnight,
Rohani

Dear Love...

2009-11-19T08:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Love,

Today, it's my 3rd Annivesary with my most beloved Irwan. The one I truly cherish and love and I would like to spend the coming years with him. I am extremely happy that we've made it and may our relationship blossom through rain or shine.

This year, was a tough year for us as it's the year we start planning ahead. It's not just a coupling relationship, it's more than that we are looking forward to. And to achieve that, we been through big fight and small ones that we've learn how to deal with and accept it as a part of a learning process.

I felt that it is worth the big arguments we had in the mid of this year where we learn how to trust. Last year, there were just "both of us" with no attraction of other party of the opposite sex. And his NS days made it impossible while I am only surrounded by 3 best friends I truly loved. There's no way for us to get away with the ''temptations'' this year since we started our working life.

Our busy schedule was one of the reason for communication breakdown in terms of supporting each other emotional feelings. Due to that, we probably had someone else to lean on especially when we only get to see each other once every 7 days (means 3 or 4 times per month - worst than NS, i tell you!) Moreover, our ego went up high since we both can be feed ourselves and independent thinking that we do not need any emotional support.The constant argument on who's fault was it lasted for 3 weeks and that moment, I had a horrible feelings of insecurities.

Fortunately, we pull it through together. We managed to handle our feelings well and place back the pieces. No Love, there wasn't any betrayal at all. The fault lies through emotional support breakdown. Through this, I've learn that if we do not have time, then make time for someone special although it may be little, at least it's meaningful and may prevent potential disasters.

There are thousands of reason why I stayed on with him; most are undescribable. However, what I can say is that I have never met a man who treats his family well and have made me feel one of them. I've met a man who meant what he says. It's not the lovely-dovey sayings that makes me feel love but it's his actions. (Read: Actions speaks louder than words)

And my advice to you, Love, find a man who treats his family well and you will get the same treatment as well. If you find a man who ignores his family needs and are rude to his parents, be very careful. Secondly, don't bother hoping for someone to love you back or wait till he'll fall in love with you. Believe me, it's not worth waiting. Besides, you will never know there's other ''fishes'' who are willing to give you its heart. Lastly, love needs to be patience and full of adventure. If you are not ready for it, don't go. It's either you take it or leave it. Each choices has its consequences.

3 years, and my love for him blossoms every single day. Now till eternity.

Love,
Rohani

The burden you gave

2009-11-04T00:55:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

I didn't know office politics can bring the company down. Seriously, how can a company survive with less than 5 staffs?

I remembered the first time I entered the office with Irwan, my first reaction, this office is so bloodly ugly. But I accepted this job to support my family. And I need this job. Gosh, I really need to read Rich Dad Poor Dad again. Eversince I have a full time job, my mind starts to think I'm poor.

Ok, back to office politics. I am the center of the good vs. evil where I transfer communications between this two parties as they both dislike talking to one another, only if they have to or when I'm not around. It's between the management level and entry level conflicts. And guess who wins the battle? It's the entry level that wins and boss didn't even think that kicking out he management level will totally bring the whole business down.

Imagine a business w/o any manager and your boss only came to office once a month. Among all left, the one who felt the most stressed out is me. Why? Because I did 99% of the customer service and network problems? This is vital especially when your company is dealing with telecommunications.

The managers kept a secret from me as they know I cannot take the news as I will be very very disappointed and emotional. Until, one of my cellogue burst the news to me. They suggest me to leave too before the management leave. So told them, I'll only leave after I get my diploma cert and I cannot afford to be jobless when the orang gila at home is shaking her leg doing nothing.

I felt extremely angry every time I saw her face at home. Imagine when you just came home from work and the first thing your mother said is about money problem. It's not that my family is facing debt or extreme financial difficulties. It's just that I can only give what I can afford. But to my mother it is not enough, especially when she wants to buy her own needs. I am never angry with my mum, I only angry with the ''org gila'' for making mum stressing me out over money.

Everytime I came home feeling very exhausted over the workload, my mum will said, "Siti, makanan kucing da abes." "Siti, ada duit tak, mak nak beli..... " "Siti, surat bill telepon da datang". -_- And I asked, "Mak bukan nak tanya, ct da makan ke blum.. macam mane siti nyer keje.. ni tak.. mane siti tak marah kat orang gila tu. Mak biarkan dia goyang kaki abeh kalau org dia datang, mak risau". You know it is so ugly to see a 24 year old being so emotional like a few months old baby. Seriously, is that going to solve any problem at all?

From young, I am the one who was force to take over your responsibility in the family and you get the credit. I am the one who has to be independent and you always depend on others. I am the youngest but felt the burden of the eldest responsibilities piling up on me as I grow older. I remembered when my sibilings are offered to go to overseas school trip, my parents gave them money. And it's my turn, they said they can't afford to pay for the trip. Though disappointed, I'm okay with that.

I started work at the age of 15, and you? You only work once you graduated and you quit so soon. When I'm poly, I have to pay my own school fees, and you? Dad paid for you. When I managed to enter poly, I asked dad for a laptop and he said he have to pay by installment as he can't afford to pay full amt. I paid 50% of the monthly installment and I need to work to pay that off. You? Dad paid your installment, you bloody ungrateful daughter. When you get your first full time job salary, you don't need to pay the bills. And me? I settle the outstanding bill that you are suppose to pay with my first full-time pay. I have to work more than one job to earn extra income. And you? You only need a job and that, you are too lazy to do so.

Even the family wants to go out, they wants me to tag along. If I don't, they won't go. I asked my family, "Whey need me? Why not the first? When she refused to go, you all okay with that. When I refused, they all will persuade and plead me till I said yes,"

Yet, I don't feel my parents upbringing is incorrect or I blame that over this matter. I blamed fully on that orang gila.

If I want to, I can leave this job. But I hold on because of my family excluding you.

Irwan is the eldest sibling. And his attitude towards his family is so different that you. I never see you as a role model or someone to depend on. Irwan pays the bill, help his brother find job, follow his family if they want to go out, carried out his responsibilities as an older brother well. You place everything to me.

I am not talking about what the first sibling should do and what last sibiling should not do. It's about corporation. If you don't corporate and being selfish all the time, I can't live harmoniously with you. Never.

The waking up call from cats

2009-10-13T09:37:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

It's been more than 3 years, Abang & Putri, stays with us and we all love them as a family. They are my best best best buddies I ever had although I don't understand their language, neither do them. However, their cutest and notorious attitude that makes the family environment lively. They are our laughter and joy.

Abang is the most tak-tau-diam cat and asyik-nak-mengempit dengan orang. Now, he has a waking up people technique eversince Ramadhan. And since he sleeps with me 50% of the time, I do get frustrated with his super loud mewing voice in the morning.

During Ramadhan, I tend to delay my time for sahur as I a super hard time waking up. The only time I really wake up is when Abang sits on head. Wah.. kong asam nyer kucing! Haha.. On other days, if I don't wake up after he mews, he will jump on my bed, place his paws on my shoulder and tap on it several times. Yup, it's hard to believe but it's true! Haha, I thinks his big eyes always pay attention to what we do and so he copied it.

Putri, on the other hand, will meow like a mad cat.. several times. She will always be the one who woke up first, minutes before subuh. She meows in each and every room in the house, one by one until someone response. She's a cat who never learns how to give up. Really!

As Abang & Putri grew older, they've learn so how things like using their paws to pull our unlocked room door and push their body against the door if they want to enter a room. Know how to use the toilet bowl. During daytime, Abang will take a nap on top of the washing machine, clean dishes, inside clean emptied open rice cooker, on top of computer and even outside the window.

Animals always accepts who we are. And so should we as human.

Alright, I shall update photos of them tmr aite..

Good nite!

Best Regards,
Rohani

Raya with my dearest

2009-10-11T05:22:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Hari Raya is soon coming to its end... Well, this year Raya been quite okay for me, neutral I guess.

Spend my 1st week of Raya with family of course,

And the 2nd week with my dearest Irwan. It was Tuesday and I took a day off as his off day falls on weekday. Visited 2 houses only, first mine, then Irwan's makcik then off to Irwan house. I'm too lazy to type.. let the picture do the talking.

Spend the 3rd week of Raya with Irwan and his SMRT friends.

Shoot.. I don't know why the picture quality is super bad when I upload it here..

Singing off,
Rohani

Aspire One mini-notebook

2009-10-04T02:49:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Finally, I've bought myself something that I really wanted! A mini-notebook!

Bought it at one of the shops at Funan IT, the cost is way lower than the market price, plus they upgrade mine to 2GB RAM with other 3 free gifts.

Other than that, the most important features that I personally wanted are...

Pink color laptop cover!!

(Now I have pink mobile, pink netbook..hmm, what's the next pink stuff I shall buy?)

Slim, lightweight and flat big keyboards!!

11 inch screen prefect for personal entertainment for movies and streaming videos.

And now, I can blog and post more pictures in my enteries! Haha.. I really have no time do that previously, as my house computer is super super slow.. Most importantly, unlike last year, I do not have to queue in the wee hours for laptop loans in school!

School start next week and my repeat module lessons falls on every Wednesday. Saw the class roaster and I am glad that I am not the only repeat student! Phew!

Glad that now I have only 4 days work week instead of 5. Work has been always very very stressful but the nasty gossips about keeps me going. Haha.. Office politics..!

Alright then, take care everyone!

Best Regards,
xx Rohani xx

I only have 2 sisters

2009-09-21T08:58:00.001-07:00

Salam all,

If this apartment is mine, I've longed to kick her out. I know it sounds bad but really, give me one good reason why I should let her stay. Fortunately, she is lucky that this home isn't mine.

Well, we all live under one roof, at least everyone should contribute to the family financially and emotionally right? No, it doesn't work like that at all. For 21 years, I never ever seen you as a eldest sister to look up to. Your ego, your self-made hysteria and your nonsense.. we all have tolerate it for so long..

Thousands of people out there, are looking for jobs and yet you, we find job for you and a great offer, you turn it down without even listening. And you make us take all your responsibilites.

You did not join us for the first day of Hari Raya visiting, because we all know that you are ashamed to say you are jobless. And we freaking had to lie to everyone we visit that you want to take care of the cats at home. For goodness sake, they can take care of themselves. We've done that last year.

If I am your parents, I will feel damn regret of wasting my money to put you through more than a decade of education. Because you give nothing in the end. If not for your own selfish attitude, father do not have to work again. What for you have a working braing with completely healthy body if you just laze around in the house, feeling that you do not need to work and we all will support you financially.

When I read articles of beggers who are too lazy to work but like beggings, it reminds me of you. I totally dislike people who do not put in hardwork and wait for the golden coins to drop from the sky. That's you, you know it but you just act it isn't you.

Mom always give you whatever you want, using the money we gave her. I don't blame her for that, I blame you for asking. You think mom and dad will support you till you grow old? If one day, they are no longer here.. I really hope not to you see in the newpaper articles.

And yes, I may sound bad but it is true what the newspaper said, "If you keep giving the beggers money, the beggers will come back for more and will depend of us." We had offer you 2 perfect jobs, and you just turn it down like that without even doing some thinking or consideration.

"If you just give a man a fish, he will eat for a day, but if you teach him how to fish, he will learn how to eat for a lifetime." I guess you don't even want to learn how to fish and expect of you give you fish everyday.

I only have 2 sisters. That's all.

Signing off,
Rohani

Job satisfaction

2009-09-21T08:58:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Before I start today's entry, I wish all Muslims a joyful SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, Maaf Zahir & Batin.

This year Ramadhan went as fast as a lighting, to me. In a blink of an eye, Syawal has come. I really thought there's one more week to go.

Eversince, all my biological grandparents passed away, it's like the mood to celebrate Hari Raya is not like it use to be. Usually everyone will gather at grandparents house and we have a big buffet. Nevertheless, I still thankful that I can still celebrate this special occasion.

I had never taken pictures with my cats during Hari Raya, before. Thus, I took this opportunity to snap a shot of them:

This is the perfect picture I've taken with Abang. Just look at his eyes.. he knows just the right time to look at the camera.

And this is the worst picture of Putri with us. Haha.. Look how fat and boncit she is! She keeps looking down... biasalah, baru bangun tdo..huhu.

My uncle's new born baby is super cute!! She keeps looking at everyone with her big round eyes and she's even cuter when she smiles!

I totally love her outfit. If I have a daughter, I definitely will dress her like this and also, a cute flowery dress for other outings. Haha..

Tomorrow marks the end of my 3.5 ''long break'' from work. Shoot.. I totally have no mood to even step into the office *sigh*

It's been nearly 6 months, and I still don't feel the job statisfaction that I desire. For my previous jobs, I always look forward to go to work and are more than happy to work extra hours.

Even though I get along with everyone in the office, I don't feel any connection with them. All we talk about is office issues. I've learnt a lot throughout my office working life but the more I learn, the more workload I get. And my workload always rollover. I hate to be the one who always picks up the phone because you've never know that there's always a client who will spolit your mood at the end of the day.

Although everyone said I'm doing well and wish I could stay in a permanent position, I still don't feel happy. I just like to move around, get up from my chair and do something instead of queezing my brain everytime I face the computer for 8 hours a day. I feel unhealthy eversince I work there. Even they raise my pay, I am still not contented. Why? Because I simply don't have passion or any interest in my job scope.

In a long run, it's passion that drives us, that motivates you.. not the pay, not the job promotion.. I felt like going back working at Cheers...though the pay is way lower than this job, I feel very happy working there. I don't feel lazy. I don't feel stress. But because of my freaking someone who are too lazy to help my family financially, I had to stay on..

I can't wait to start school next month, so that I have 4 days work week instead of 5 and I can't wait to quit this job after my school ended and I get a cert so that I can apply NIE. Is interacting with kids and teaching that I love most.. that's I keep doing my tutor part-time job for 4 years. A job I enjoy doing.

Sigh... there's work tomorrow..

Best regards,
Rohani

Job and savings

2009-08-21T05:40:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I've just convert to perm after my 4 months contract ended with agency last Monday. And I totally regret making that decision because of the 3 digit pay and the stressful over work load. However, at the same time, I need this job because I have to help 2nd sis to support my family financially. And I really felt like stabbing the one member who sits in the same roof with us and doing nothing but read books and surf the net, which I have to pay every month, including my dad's phone bill and fixed line. That don't include my own phone bill in which I am looking forward for the contract to end next month. Nevertheless, I am fortunate that I have 2 tuition jobs that total bring home pay to 4 digits.

School will start in two months time and I will be working 4 times per week. Thank goodness, i have at least a day to escape from the stressful daylight nightmare at work. And I am so going to talk to my bos when he came back next week to negotiate about my pay. But bos rarely talk to me just because he really suck at English. Imagine I have to take down meeting minutes when 80 percent of the time, he speaks in Mandarin? The next meeting, he decided to replace my task to a my chinese colleague.

I envy Irwan because he likes his job and his pay is way higher than mine. He has already start saving for marriage and mine still zero. I finally had paid my school fees which I saved and now I need to save for laptop, then marriage. I need this job till jan 2010 and im off to start searching for a job I enjoy doing instead of a job I ''have to''. If that free-loader member work, I do not need to continue this job after my contract. I am very mad, it's been more than 6 months, she ''jual anggur'' without even putting an effort to find a job.

Right now, I miss Irwan. He's been working very hard so that he could save more and get married earlier than expected. While I... still stuck financially even though I put more than enough effort and hard work in my job. A company full of problematic issues unsolved.

I realized that in my work, I solved problem but I do not know what is the root or cause of the problem. When I asked around, all they gave is ''dont tell the real problem to the customer, just make up one or cover it up..'' I seriously feel that this company wont last long if this continue. How can the company survived if all they do is running away from problems? Be realistic.

Im off right now..

Rohani

Cintailah Cinta

2009-08-15T10:10:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I've always love songs from Padi & Dewa band. Their lyrics is so meaningful and not like those songs which are way too emotional and heartbreaking. I shall end this blog entry with a song from Dewa, Cintailah Cinta.. read their lyrics, it makes you ponder.

Cintailah Cinta - Dewa

Tuhan anugerahi sebuah cinta
Kepada manusia untuk
Dapat saling menyayangi
Bila kebencian meracunimu
Takkan ada jalan keluar
Damai hanya jadi impian

Kita takkan bisa berlari
Dari kenyataan bahwa kita manusia
Tempatnya salah dan lupa
Jika masih ada cinta di hatimu
Maka maafkanlah segala kesalahan
Cintailah cinta

Bila kamu bisa 'tuk memaafkan
Atas kesalahan manusia
Yang mungkin tak bisa dimaafkan
Tentu Tuhan pun akan memaafkan
Atas dosa yang pernah tercipta
Yang mungkin tak bisa diampuni

My 21st Birthday! (:

2009-08-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum all,

Last Friday, on the 7th of Aug '09, I finally turned 21. Yesh ar, can watch R21 movie.. hahaha!

It was a wonderful evening with Irwan, after long hours at work.

For the first time, we had a dinner at Lau Pa Sat and was pleasantly invited by a satay stall staff at its entrance, followed by 2 other stall staffs with menus on their hands. We felt like VIP. Haha..

The satay was sooooo sedap!! No wonder the stall's satay was appears on TV several times. Soft meat and absolutely delicious peanut sauce. Die, die..must try!

After we end our meal, I could not wait to open the gift from Irwan. Guess what he bought for me? It's Sony Ericsoon W595!!! That's the phone I've been eyeing for since last year. And it must be pink! I love it! I love it! I love it! Muacks! Muacks! Muacks!

We end my birthday night, with a wonderful birthday cake from him! Thanks love!

Dear Irwan,

Thank you for the wonderful gift, I truly appreciate it and love it so much! This is our 3 time we celebrate our birthday and coming more years to go. My love for you has never change and it never will. Instead, it will always be strengthen like the rock I first gave you as a present from my heart.

Thank you love, for everything. Muah!

Loves,
Rohani

Your crazy emotion

2009-06-28T04:46:00.000-07:00

I freaking hate those who have everything but achieve nothing
I extremely hate those who are afraid to try because they are afraid of rejections/failure
I totally hate those who are totally independent on everybody and he/she is nothing when no one is around
I so hate those who are free loaders, hoping that fortune and luck will come from the sky but did nothing
I do hate those who are born or said to be a leader but lead no example
I hate you for asking me to cover to your ass

What for get good grades in school while in the end you are too afraid or are too cheeky to face the reality in working life?
Someone just shake legs and laugh his/her ass off while we paid for it.
And when we paid for it, you did nothing to help others.
And when we did not pay for it, the others will blame on us and even when they blame on you , asking you to help, all you did is just vent your crazy frustration and did nothing.

It's true when people say we should help others. But for how long? When they do not want to help themselves. Is it worth it?

I hate giving you fish. If I teach you how to fish, you just went crazy and back to square one.

Happy 25th Birthday, Ayang!

2009-06-27T08:30:00.001-07:00

Salam all,

The Surprise Birthday

2 days ago was Irwan's 25th Birthday! It seem like yesterday we just celebrate your 22nd Birthday 3 years ago.

On his birthday, I've made a surprise visit at his workplace, after I am done with my tuition. It was 11pm. With the help of his cellogue, I managed to board the train he was working him. He was really shocked when he turned his back after I called him, "Hello sir? Sir!"

The 2nd surprise was a box of chewy junior with written birthday message I gave to him.

The 3rd surprise was today where I gave him Adidas hamper which I wrapped like it's for hantaran.

Today was awesome! Finally we get to spend one whole day together. Transformer was great! It's a must to watch though sitting on a chair for more than 2 hours can cause butt to ache.

It's not frequent for us to spend one whole day together due to our working life schedule. It only happens once a month. On other days, we get to spend less than 5 hours or even lesser than that, as his off days usually falls on my work day which ends at 6pm.

It was not love before the relationship, it was love in the relationship
I don't believe that we managed to come this far, celebrate your birthday together for the 3rd time. We barely know each other for one week we've met but our relationship can last for years. I was not totally in-love with him nor 100% attracted to him when we were in a s0-called one week 'friendship' (well, I don't feel that we have friendship relationship anyway). I do have no idea how my mouth would just automatically says, "U like me, right?" and not using my brain to think rationally. Haha. I know I am thick skin. It was in the relationship, we just to know each other better and through hell and heaven, we survived.

Respect your relationship
I never liked to blog much about our arguments and his behaviour I do not like. You can never find any blog entry telling readers, how bad my boyfriend is and how broken-hearted I am towards him. Because I truly respect our relationship and the emotional break down we shared. I only shared this with my close friends who will and had never said "leave him" because to my opinion it will only make things worse. Instead, they will help to heal my uncertain emotions, and told me to think it rationally.

I remembered this speech which I heard over the TV, "If you do not like your partner behaviour at that time, think about the sweet memories you shared together and think about the good behaviour which you like about him/her even out of 10, 9 of them are behaviour you dislike and only one you like. Even though it's only 1 behaviour, it can save the relationship."

Irwan isn't the 100% perfect guy I dream of. But I know he's the guy close to my heart, a great best friend and a partner whom I wish to share my journey with.

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY, Ayang!

Best regards,
Rohani

31st Monthsary

2009-06-19T06:23:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

2 years 7 months.

How fast time fly.

The first day we met. The first movie we watch. The first date we had, which is cycling and go shopping at Sheng Shiong. The first argument.

Your NS days. 2 years. Been through hell. But was all worth it as we get the hang of it. It seems like a quick blink that finally, your NS days are over. I saw how your size changes big to small to big again. Hehe.. And that hill at your stomach is tough for an ant to climb.

Then, working life. Both just start real full-time job in late 2008 and early 2009. Been through hell too as we rarely meet. Sometimes one or two days, we did not contact. But I know, we always get the hang of it.

Despite the times I felt like killing you, leaving you is impossible - though at certain times I said that to you. I know that without your strong family support and you, this relationship will be over ages ago.

Now, less than half a year, it's going to be 3 years. Target before you turn 30, we should be settling down and I wait for that moment. I always been in love with you because you make me feel loved.

HAPPY 31st MONTHSARY!

Love of love,
Rohani

Experience VS Good grades

2009-06-05T05:34:00.000-07:00

Salam all

Work has been very choatic since last month. Invoices, customer complaints, changing route and now with my manager leaving the company, I have even more workload. For next 3 weeks, my senior and I will have 'spring cleaning' filing and workspace. So much to do and so little time. I ended up bring my work home.

The only one thing I enjoy in working life is the hands-on training given. I realized whatever I learn in school has gone to waste coz non of the education I received in school can be applied in working life. It's totally different. In school, people only talk what they memorize but they don't walk their talk. They do not know how it really feels like to be in a pressurizing environment and time constraint. The emotional effect is not applied coz it can't be taught through the book.

As I always mentioned, I hate dealing with numbers but at work, I enjoy doing it because it challenging and solving people's problem is my key interest. I barely passed my Accounts and failed my Business Accounting, but now I am handling company's petty cash and client's Statement of Accounts. In school, I swear I do not know what the heck is that though it is being thought. The reason is I learnt best doing rather than memorizing.

I admit, I used to hate working in the office coz I found it to be a boring life. However, as I progressed, I really love the knowledge I received every single day though it can be stressful. I am considering to extend my contract till next year until I get my diploma. I just feel that there's no difference if I get my diploma or not. It's doesn't make any big impact. But I still have to complete it for the sake of my dad's hard work.

I dislike cynical people who thinks that the higher the education the educator have, the smarter the student will be. I nearly got this tuition assignment but when asked about the grade I get for my Math and English for O level, they turned me down. So I fight back to stand up for what I feel. "So what if the person is smart at learning (memorizing only) but is a failure at teaching. What good does to your child? And it doesn't mean that if the teacher is a PHD, the student will end up like him or her. Is how much effort does your student puts in and how the teacher can motivate the student to enjoy learning." And I added, "I had 4 years of experience in teaching kids, and more than 50% of them improve in their studies although my grades in school are bad. You may feel disgusted to see my results slip but I hope you think twice when you see the A's my students get".

Still, they are considering to take another educator. I am not desperate for this assignment. I was only trying to bring out the point that good grades is never equivalent to experience.

Salam,
Rohani

Emotional support

2009-05-24T02:34:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I'm so bored in the office. Feeling so RP. And I guessed most of my previous classmates knows that I always talk to the computer. And I did it, in the office. One day before boss left taiwan, finally he talk to me about work.

And I said, "Okay la..".

"What do you mean by okay?", he asked.

CT: I mean I am contented but not satisfied.
Bos: Okay, what is satisfaction mean to you?
CT: I just want to get out of this office. I'm so bored.
Bos: What do you want to do?
CT: Err.. explore the world outside this room. Meet new people. Talk to people.
Bos: Like sales? I felt that sales and admin work are the same. You get bored too doing sales. Coz everyday you meet client, present, once done.. go back to office.
CT: No... once you get to meet people, you learn something. At least, I get to talk to someone. Right now, if I talk to the computer, there's no interaction. Haha..
Bos: Yeah, true...true. So you want to do sales? I can give that position to you.
CT: If I do sales, who is going to help Vinna? It's okay, I shall wait till Isabelle come back after maternity leave.

I just don't like the feeling of the gap between the top management and the general position. That's how I am not being opened. Only with my bos, I don't know why, I am just being very honest.

CT: So, how it feels like to have a business?
Bos: Yeah, okay.
CT: Aren't you very happy?
Bos: Yeah, but have a lot of responsibilites.
CT: But you have freedom. You can choose whether you want to come to the office or not. And your staffs are helping to you do the work while you can enjoy yourself. This is what I want. My dream.
Bos: Really, what type of business do you want?

And so the conversation goes on...

We only see bos for 1 week in every 2 months. The rest, he go back to this homeland. That's what I want. I hate to work work work... for something I had no interest about.

While tutoring is another thing. I so loveee to teach no matter how notorious the student is and how much they made me sooo mad at them. So me, the emotion challenge keeps me going. I am very happy that my primary 1 student have all A's for all the 3 subjects. And the primary 3 yet to know the results. But I am soo worried for the pri 3 student.

She lives in a big spacious apartment, have more than 3 maids and her pocket money is $5 every day. I remembered when I was in pri 3, my pocket money is half of that. But when it comes to emotional support, I can clearly see that her parents are not motivating her enough. I had never seen her dad and when I asked her, she said her dad is working overseas. Her mum, I have no idea. I only see her grandma, cousins, aunties, uncles and brother..

And her attitude is very challenging to handle. I find that parents should not push all the reponsibilities to the teacher/tutor for the studies. Educations always start from home, why ended it when they reach school? A baby learn how to walk, at home. They learn to speak the first word, at home.

Although my parents never force me to study, I know I can do well and if I don't, I know I can do well in another thing. When I asked the student, do you really want this tuition or are you force to do so? She told me, her dad told her to do so. And her dad is no where visible at home. And when I asked her, what are you good at? "I don't know", she answered. I guessed, she have not found her passion yet.

I know I am a repeat student and I am saying all about this. I repeat not because I am lack of emotional support. I just know there's something more impt I can do best rather than going to school. And I take full responsibilities for my failure.

Alright then, I shall end with this meaningful lirik from Padi: Jika engkau bersedih

Jika engkau bersedih ...pastilah ini ada maksudnya
Andai engkau bisa tertawa... seharusnya bahagia

Dan jika karma itu ada...berpeganglah atas hatimu
Karena kau tak akan bisa...mengabaikan takdirmu

Tak perlu engkau terus bersedih
Seperti dulu melemahkan niatmu
Sudahi saja tangismu
Tetapkan hati berjuang bersama lagi

Tahukah engkau bahwa... cinta itu adalah anugerah
Sama seperti adanya... hidup kita hidup ini
Mengertikah engkau bahwasanya
Gagal itu bukanlah kekalahan
Selama kau memahami apa... yang menguji hatimu

Tak perlu lagi engkau bersedih
Seperti dulu melemahkan niatmu
Semoga bertemu kembali
Tetapkan hati berjuang bersama lagi

Tak usa h lagi bersedih...
Tak perlu terus bersedih...
Tak usa h lagi bersedih...
Tak perlu terus bersedih...

Best regards,
Rohani

Perempuan Berkalung Sorban

2009-05-09T00:24:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I've watched the movie Perempuan Berkalung Sorban twice and I absolutely love it! Better than Ayat-ayat Cinta coz it's related to how I feel about women being too dependent on men.

The main message that the movie is trying to convey is the 'hak' of women in Islam. You know how men or your partner always nagged at you, "Perempuan tak seharusnyer kluar malam2 tanpa teman, perempuan seharusnyer duduk kat umah masak, tolong mak, uat keje rumah. Perempuan tak payah keje, kena jaga anak dan makan minum suami. Perempuan tak secocok jadi pemimpin." Or women will sigh and say "I can't live without my husband or men. If he divorce me, how am I going to survive? With kids and without money.."

I am glad that I have best friends who are also financially independent as me. We have the same thinking, "Don't depend too much on men". We've been in the same situation where for years, we've been living in an invisible cell where we cannot voice out our point of view and life is being controlled too much. That's why we have learnt our lesson after we have break out from that cell and the freedom we felt is heaven.

This movie have not come out in Singapore yet. It was published in Indonesia early this year. I strongly recommend you guys to watch it. It's a must! Haha..

Nevertheless, at certain times we need teman hidup.. I shall end this entry with a qoute from the movie,

"Jangan sebut aku perempuan sejati jika hidup hanya berkalang lelaki, tapi bukan berarti aku tidak butuh lelaki untuk aku cintai.."

Regards,
Rohani

Job satisfaction

2009-05-05T07:58:00.001-07:00

Salam all,

Usually I will always be the first one to go out off the office 6pm on the dot; always watching the clock hand. However, recently, I'm the 2nd last to get out from the office as I have tonnes of work to do! Imagine, you have to cut 500 flyers in a day, stapled 200 sets of paper as well as fold paper to fit in the envelopes of more than 300 pieces. Not only that, I have to check email everytime to reply customer's enquiries and pick up the phone too.

Everyone seems so nice all of the sudden, especially the girl I wrote about in my previous entry. Eversince the KTV company's outing, I am getting use to the social hectic office work life there. Still, I don't feel the job satisfaction.

Tuition work has been stressful these recent weeks as their SA1 are coming. I just scolded like mad to one of my tutee so always give excuses. Okay, I admit I am a fierce tutor when it comes to discipline but when it's play-time, I losen up. Afterall, I did that because I love teaching. It's not just to come to the student's house, teach and go. I will feel I am a failure if I did not make any positive impact on a person's life. And I am so tempted to get one more student to teach.. haha.. but I know I will not get enough rest with 4 jobs now.

I guess recession time does not made an impact on me to get a job. Just don't be choosy. Coz experience matter the most rather than qualification. And though to some, the salary does matter, just remember "it's not how much money you get, it's how much money you keep."

Regards,
Rohani

4 white walls

2009-04-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Been very busy with work and work. I totally dislike my office job. I hate to feeling of "have to" to work instead of "want to" and work because of money. If I did not sign the contract in the first place, I should not be in this position right now. Everyone in the office asked me if bos were to given me an opportunity to make this a permanent job, will I consider it. As quick as a lighting, I said no. I don't feel like being myself in the room of white walls. Totally like RP whereby you sit infront of the computer doing the exact same thing everyday.

And there is a so-called problem with my attitude at work which somebody dislike. I did not realized that it affects her and it's not that I have intention to be rude to her. Please la, so sensitive. She think she just came 4 months earlier than me, nak step senior. She complaint to the management that I did not respect her and the way I talk to her, is quiet rude. Everyone in the office told me that my voice is too loud. Well, it's natural. Those who are in the same class as me in RP, will know that I exist by just hearing my voice w/o searching for my face. And I'm not shouting okay. And all of them talked too soft, I barely hear a word. In the office, you can hear a pen dropped, loud and clear.

I am inexperience staff in the office. I totally do not know how to use the photocopy machine, fax and etc. And the look on her face just pisses me off, suka la pijak2 kepala orang bawahan. I just got the feeling that some of them are just "trying" to be nice. Since last Wednesday, I went
lunch alone rather than sitting on the same table with them, hearing them talking in their own language, and guess what, they still talk about work outside work. -_-

Lastly, I feel unhealthy. Haha.. I rarely walk around, talk to people and work my mind. I feel like a robot doing the same task every single day w/o thinking of new ideas and etc. I am okay handling customer's complaint coz I finally get to talk! After work, I am so looking forward to my tuition job and sometimes if AIA called me, I am so looking forward in participating in their events.

I guess right now, I will just have to keep my mouth shut and be patient. Starring at the 4 white blank walls again..

Salam,
Rohani

The most boring job ever!

2009-04-11T07:08:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I so hate my office job. So boring! I'm the only Malay there and everyone in the room speaks chinese 90% off the time and I feel left out. I tried to make a conversation with them but it seems one-sided as I questioned them, they answered and they never asked me anything.

The office environment is so like RP, sitting on a chair with a computer infront of you. They were so busy and focus on their computer that the room seems to be very silent except they on the phone with their client. In the first 2 days of work, what I did was just cutting flyers, paste postage on envelopes, filing documents and pick up call. This is my first office environment job and I so find it uninteresting. I just want to get out of my chair and talk to people. Anyone, stranger..apek..auntie. I want to shout my lungs out and have fun, walk around. You bet, I'm the youngest one there. All of them are 24 years old and above; married or getting married soon.

I guess that retail and sales works best for me since I start to work at 16 years old. Teaching has also been my passion. I am so looking forward for tuition, although it's after my office hour work and I don't feel tired at all. The feeling of finally talking to someone was a great satisfaction.

I still have to stick to my office job till my contract ends. Haish..

I just saw my best friend's blog and read other graduate RP-ains online journal.. Okay, I have to admit I am kinda of envy they have their diploma cert in hands and I will have to wait a year more. Freaking just one failed module!! And the "best" thing, I work just to pay my school fees. How many percent of students in Singapore really pay their own school fees? I just have to move on and think positive. I will do better this time, hoping for a higher chances in NIE after graduate next year.

Other than graduation entry, I blog-hop and read enteries where by young couple spend most of their dates eating at restuarants like Swensens, Pizza Hut and etc. I remembered the first few months of r/s with Irwan, I envy couple to dine in restuarants and dying to go there soon. Guess when we finally did that? It's only after 2years of r/s and we finally get to dine in restuarant which is Earl's Swensen! And I realized that money does matter in relationship. We are going to be 2.4 years together soon and we still keep to our "couple financial system" - Never spend more than $100 in a month. That's why only after two years, we finally getbreathe the air of a restuarant. And if we decided to dine in to restuarant again, never used the $100. Use own pocket money. Don't asked parents. Till now, I'm very happy to have a small meal with him at pasar malam just now.

Regards,
Rohani

Getting a job

2009-04-06T03:23:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

Working life is damn tough and finding work is much tougher especially during the economic downturn. I have quit my job as a Direct Sales Executive 3 weeks ago due to the sales quota that I cannot meet in time. Although I still find the working environment is very exciting, the fact that I am unable to cope with the fast growing sales industry which focus on improving sales as fast as possible, has place pressure on me. Thus, I have left the company and the pay doesn't makes sense to me to be quite frank.

I did not left the company with regret and disappointment but I left with a wonderful experience in which help me to boost my my confidence but fear of commission-based earning. After I quit, I find it so hard to get a fixed-pay job especially for temporary position as I will be repeating my 2nd semester (which starts on Oct this year) due to just one failed module in which I hate the most - Business Finance and my current GPA is 2.5. Just because of one module, I cannot graduate; it's not that I failed overall. Thus, the need of finding a job is very important as I have to pay my own school fees which cost about $1k plus. Nevertheless, I am not ashamed being a repeated student.

I've been up to 5 interviews and all of them told me that "We will call you back if you are shortlisted". They never did. To be honest, I did not practice the "Interview Rules" during interview. I just answer what came across my mind. Today, I had an interview as Operation Assistant, temp position to cover the maternity leave staff. It was the most memorable interview I ever had.

The interviewer is a Chinese China man who knows nothing about the Singapore. Instead of asking me questions related to the job scope, he asked, "I see your resume that you studied in Republic Polytechnic. So what's the difference with Singapore Polytechnic that is nearby here? I don't really know about Singapore education system." So I explain to him how the education system works in Singapore, from primary level to master. Haha..

Then he asked me, "What's your favourite module in polytechnic?" "Marketing. Because I love to generate ideas and set on my thinking cap. I also love to talk to people. That's why all of my previous job experience are retail and sales. Nevertheless, I hope to get this job in to widen my knowledge and experience." He was surprised. So he asked me about positioning, segmentation and all the terms of the marketing area. I saw a poster on his table and I asked him, "Is this what your company sell? IDD international calling card? How come I never seen this calling card before?"

He answered, "It's available at India."
CT: Ouh, so you mean that this card is not availabe in Singapore?
He: No, it's available here.
CT: But you just said India.
He: Little India.
Haha.. we just laugh it all.

CT: Why not you sell it at the retail outlets, such as Cheers, 7-eleven, famous handphone shops. When I worked in Cheers, Phoenix card is the most sellable. Why not you analysis your competitors?
He: Ouh, because we work with a distributor. Anyway, our calling cards sales has decline and we need to work it out. I felt that it is this poster issue.
CT: Yeah, you are right. This poster is not convincing and attractive enough. Your differentiation from the rest of the IDD cards is that you have "scratch and win" lucky draws. But there's a lots of words in this poster. No emphasis at all. The prize picture should be larger. It is not vicible. And how you came out with the prizes?
He: Ouh, I can see that you are really good that this marketing part.
CT: If I were in the customer shoe, I want prizes that is up-to-date. The first prized is quite okay but not the 2nd and so-on prizes. Who wants to really win mp3 player? I-phone or i-pod is in-trend right now. In any lucky draw competitions, be it in TV, most of them offer i-phone as a promotion strategies.
He: You are right. So since you know how to market a product well, I may consider you to work in the sales and marketing department after the 4 months temp job.

I told Irwan that the person will call me back once shortlisted and I explain that had happen. From his face, he was so disappointment on how I critique their poster because it shows I look down on the company. I just want employer to employ me for who I am and I am being very honest. It is never my intention to look down on the company that I want to give them my point of view so that they understand where I was coming from. I want to help. However, in less than 20 mins later, the hiring manager called me to start work on this wednesday. I am freaking happy! Alhamdulillah, I finally got a job though it's only temp position.

What's more? In the evening, I received a call that I am successfully selected to teach tuition for primary 1 student EM & Malay and will start this week. Currently, I'm tutoring primary 3 student EMS. So have 3 jobs total.

I considered teaching as my hobby. So I don't really view it as a job as I enjoy teaching and feel really satisfied when that students improve. I try to keep myself busy before sem 2 start. Irwan has also been very busy with his SMRT job as circle line will commence soon on 1st May. He's been voluntarily working overtime to save money, first to support family and second to get married; insyaAllah when I turn 26. I'm not in a rush.

I've stopped my business as I have some trouble with it. And now focusing on finding jobs to gain experience and opportunities.

In this economic downturn, increasing number of people realized that insuran is very important and now, most company will not guarantee your job. I went to AIA recruitment talk and found it very interesting in how the system works. Although it is only commission-based job, the career prospect interest me the most. Minimum sales is 3 submission for every 3 months and imagine that even you don't work, you still have income coming in. Insurance customers are required to pay every month and for every month, more than 20% (depending on the type of insurance) of what they paid will go to us. So the more customers you collect, the more stable income you get even you don't work! A friend of mine have been in the AIA for 10 years and her stable income is around $2k without working. Wah... I told Carmelia this and she was very interested too. Unfortunately, we have not officially turned 21 yet. But we have plan to take the insurance test to see if we can fit in this job scope.

Being independant is not easy. Su, Carmelia and I were financially independent since our Year 3 poly. We have to work to pay our food and transport expenses, shopping and bills without getting a single cent from our parents. That's the thing we have in common. I sold my Sony Ecrisson cybershot handphone to pay my transport fares to go job interview. Carmelia sold an in-trend device that she had work hard to buy it and now she have just sold it to pay her University school fees. While Su hard earn money is controlled and managed by her dad. And although mine is not controlled, I have to work hard for family and myself.

Like I said before, getting a job is not a long-term solution to be financially free. I still have dream to set up an offline business.

Salam,
Rohani

Abang & Putri Latest Pic

2009-03-19T10:39:00.001-07:00

2 year 4 months togetherness

2009-03-18T07:19:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

19/02/09 marked our 28 monthsary. I have no idea how long we will last together, but I am definitely sure we are going to make this last forever.

During Irwan's SMRT chalet on the previous 2 weeks, I remember having a friendly converstaion with his supervisor. At first, we are talking about credit cards, then about sales job and finally about married as well as financial life. I told him that before I get married, I will tell myself to be financially and mentally prepared when divorced happens. He questioned me, "Why must you prepare yourself for the worst? In that case, don't get married if you are already thinking about divorce." Well, I answered that I do not want to an up to be a divorcee left with insufficient money to fed herself and the kids as well as losing a hope for a bright future ahead. Since he is an experience married man for more than 20 years with teenage kids, he gave me his advice. Just don't think of divorce. Think of how to prevent a broken marriage.

And yeah, it's true. We sometimes always think of the "what if's" negatives. Instead of "how to" prevent them from happening. For more than 2 years, wanting to be with someone else besides Irwan had never across my mind. Thinking of breaking up only happens during our early stages of r/s, the part where true colors emerge and getting used of one another's different ways of handling things. And then I realized that no matter how much I felt like smacking his face during our arguements, I never thought of breaking up because I know that after this, everything will be okay. And it is. Thus, it is how you handle the negatives positively.

Before I was with Irwan, I had so many things to talk with guy friends, especially with someone I just met. And I enjoyed going out with them or just a drink. However, things change. When I'm introduce to a new guy especially malay, I will just smile and that's it. I don't even say a word. I just don't know what to talk. I remember when I met Muz at Cheers, we were together in the counter. When there's no customer, we just didn't talk nor I look at him. And in my mind, what kind of topic should I start the conversation. There was a long 15minutes silent.

I was introduce another guy in my sales job. I did not even say hi or gave a smile for one whole day though we worked as a team. It's not that I'm shy or unfriendly. I just don't know what to talk. And if he do ask question, I just reply and did not question him back. There was never a conversation. It's like an interview session. He asked, I reply. That's it.

Now with Irwan, he is my annoying lovable best friend. I can talk anything to him but he talk even more than me. Sometimes, he repeat the same thing again and again. Just last 4 days, he told me about an incident that he accidently drive out of the road and hit the pathway. I counted that he mentioned the same story more than 3 times in one day. And on the phone, he can talk more than 10 minutes without pausing. If he becomes silent, I know that volcanic eruption will occur in just a few minutes. Which means he's not happy with something.

I remembered I had an ex-bf who keep asking me the same question everyday and never told me what happen to his day. It's always one sided conversation and keeps the relationship bored and there's no arguement at all throughout the 4 months of r/s. After the break-up, I wish that my next r/s is going to be someone who talks a lot. And my wish came true when Irwan enters my life.

I can recalled the time my first phone conversation with him when we were just friends. He talked and talked and he hang up. My first impression, "Wah..shiok sendiri. Bebual pasal dia je." The first outing also the same. He talk about himself all day. Hahaa..

I know that so far, I still enjoy being with him despite all the thunder and storms. He's my lover, best friend and companion.

HAPPY 28th MONTHSARY, IRWAN!

Love you,
Rohani

Overcoming fear of being rejected

2009-01-28T08:07:00.000-08:00

Hi all,

First of all, I would like to inform those you have added me in MSN, please delete mine of your contact list. It's been more than 3 months since I last sign in MSN as my email kena hack or so. I am unable to log-in and when requested to change password, I remember I just deleted my other email.

2.2 years relationship
Finally, after 2.2 years of relationship, Irwan brought me to Swesens, Earl's Swensens. Haha.. it's been a long wait.. but it was all worth it. He just got his first full-time job pay..chey, da kaya raya baru bawak kite pi Swensens. The Earthquake icecream were a brain-freezer....but sedap! Will upload the pictures soon...when I am free.

Sales Executive
I've been applying for a full-time job positions online. I just keep on clicking the "Apply" button or submit my resume when requested. Though jobs like clinical position, administrative work and etc are not my cup of tea, I just try my luck by clicking "Apply". However, I wish to work as an education industry. Been applying several positions such as Asst. Teacher, Allied Educators, educators for disabled and so on.. but till now, none of them replied.

However, I received a call last week regarding a job I applied in one of the job portal. I have no idea what job it is. But I gave it a try and went for an interview the next day after the call.

The job position I "ter-apply" was as Sales Executive. The term used sounds like a very high post. I was told to were formal on the interview. I wasn't prepared at all and my heart ain't racing. Without confident, I went into a interview room. It is such a micracle that I talk like someone who really have passion for this job (actually I'm not).

I am fortunate to be the short-listed candidate for 2nd interview. Which is today. I just go ahead and did not expect much. I did not prepare anything. They told me to wear formal once again. Instead, this time, I wore casual formal.

To my surprise, the 2nd interview was totally different than the 1st one. I and the other two new short-listed candidates was introduced by other collegues - the manager, the trainer, the trainee and etc. Everyone in that room made me feel welcome. They shared their personal experience and we played games.

And yeah, I got a hangboa. How great was that. Everyone were so socialable. After the ice-breaking session, I head down to Pasir Rish with my team members. Okay.. now I will tell you what Sales Executive job scope is. I work for Standard Chartered bank, persuading passer-by to apply for the cerdit card. Sounds familiar? I am sure you guys seen this scene in interchanges, outside shopping mall and so on.

Overcoming the fear
This time, I wish I was dreaming. I wasn't prepared at all. However, with the great team members support, I get at least one applicant in less than 2 hours. It was tough, i got over my nerves and my fear of approaching strangers.

I am the only tudung staff in the company and when I saw some makciks and pakciks saw me promoting credit cards, weird expression paints on their face. I am aware that in Islam, we are not allowed to used interest. You know credit cards have interest, only if you don't pay the full amount on time. I believe we all have brains to think how to take advantage of the credit cards wisely.

Thus, I do not wish to care what others might think. I am just promoting the credit card and it is up to the users to decide how to use it to their own advantage. If they misuse, it's none of my business. At the end of the day, I got this job. And today, and I fully prepared for this job.

Chosen career
The reason why I chose this career is because of the team. They are willing to share, to support when you failed. There's some we all will have fun and joke around, but when working hours, we stay focus but still have fun. 2nd is because my personal growth. I wish to boost up my self-esteem, my fear of what other might think, improve my communication skills and prove to all the people out there, that this job is NOT FOR LOSER.

Surprisingly, most of my cellogues are O level holders, only a number of them are diploma or degree graduates. However, they become successful now, some of them are already in a manager position - with N/O level cert earning up to 3k/month. It's the talking that counts in the real career prospects.

As I've planned, after this sales job, I wish to apply for a teaching post - when I am satisfied when my communication skills.

Most people read Robert T.Kiyosaki books, but they don't walk their talk. And I do not want to be one of them.

Regards,
Rohani

The Unwanted Marriage Life

2009-01-09T08:15:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

This week lesson take-away

Throughout this week, I've learnt a lot of things about marriage life eversince my colleague, named "anna" (not real name) told me that she will be getting a divorce of more than 20 years marriage with her husband in the middle of this month. The reason I did not state her real name here is because I respect others privacy but there's need for me to share to others what their experience - A lesson to be remembered.

A failed marriage
I asked her, "Why? Do you guys remember the sweet memories of when you both first met?" She told me that it's useless. They could not work out anymore because her husband kept a women for 6 years behind her. He had a high-paying job in the early years of marriage but had lost it eventually. As a wife, she decide to go out to look for job to help her husband to cope their family financial. She work hard 5 days per week, a night shift job. After 6 years, she just found out that the man she loved had stabbed her back hard. He found new love 20 years younger than him. That's when she started to lose faith of her marriage - she was emotionally disturbed and have lose a lot of weight since.

She found another love and introduce to her husband. She said to me that she do not like to keep a secret like her husband did. I asked her, "So are you going to marry him after divorce?" "I'm not sure, marriage is like a phobia to me after this incident." She married her husband even though he was not good looking. She's 10 years younger than him and she never though he is going to do such a thing. She did not complete her school and got married at a young age of 21 due to her late mum pressure to see all her children walk down the aisle before she passed away.

The valuable advice
She had to work to support her 3 children. She gave me a valuable advice, "Siti, you should work hard. Get a good job than your husband. So that when he chuck you one side, you are still able to survive". During my secondary school years, I plan to get married at the age of 21 - which is this year. That was before I met Irwan. However, when I think back, it isn't worth to marry someone at a young age when you yourself have not achieve your dreams or are not happy with the current situation - even though you love someone that much. Irwan and I had plan to get married only when we can afford to buy a house, get a stable job and have enough money to bulid a family (which includes children). So I told myself, I want to at least set up a small business before I get married. The reason is: Money is very important in marriage. Don't get me wrong. Love is also important but w/o money, love becomes hatred. In a study shows that the root cause of divorce is lack of money. You just can't denied, it's the fact.

Get what you deserved
Setting up a small business under my own name. I will never consider my husband as a shareholder. You know why? Because I once worked in a pushcart business that were shared between husband and wife. After they got divorce, the whole business just shut down because the money is split and there's isn't enough support to continue the business. The wife, from a housewife to a full-time employee. I told Irwan, that I wish to achive my dreams and become successful before we get married. Why bother make the other happy with you yourself are not satisfied with what you have?

Single at the age of 50 due to divorce
In a financial book titled, "Rich Women" by Kim Kiyosaki, it stated that a percentage (I forgot the figures) of women in America are single at the age of 50 due to divorce and most of them face financial difficulties because they depend too much on their husband. Their financial rate go down as high as 70%. An excuse for a women not able to be financially independant is because she have too much responsibility as a daughter, wife and mother. It's different era now. I will salute housewives who have brains to think to get their own pocket money besides getting it from their husband. Look at how many women are had established an online business, especially at Multiply - and most of them are housewives! (:

When I asked my other cellogue why she get married at an age of 21, she said that she never think about it but advice me not to get married so soon. Yesterday, while serving a female customer, I talked to 'Leen', "Wah.. before marriage, happy like honeymoon. After marriage, honeymoon period finished already..hahaha!" And the customer join in the conversation, "Yup, that's true. Life during marriage isn't as beautiful as life before marriage. It sucks! I'm sorry, I just tell based upon my experience but I think it's the fact."

I can't say that marriage life isn't beautiful because I'm not yet marriage and I think that it's subjective. Nevertheless, I do want to get married but not right now, until I have achieve what I want in life. I do not want to add burden on my shoulders if I am not able to lighten it.

Salam,
Rohani

The New Life

2009-01-05T09:26:00.000-08:00

It was such a windy day!

Salam all...

I know.... it's been such a long time since I last update my blog. Nevertheless, it will not be dead.

2009 here. It's will be a new life for me and Irwan. Irwan got a job as an employee in SMRT few weeks after ORD in December. And I, will be graduating end of Jan 09. Thus, since both of us will be working, it will be a different life... save money for future mah..

"Bila lah aku nk beli kereta ni, da dapat lesen kereta tapi keretanya tak da."

2years 1 month with Irwan. This is the longest relationship ever I had with a guy. My previous relationships always ended less than half a year. I would be lying to say that my r/s with Irwan is perfect. There are full of roller-coaster ride and stepping stones but it's all worth it. I guess it is not about finding Mr.Perfect, but finding someone that I am comfortable being with despite all the arguments, and still have confident that things will work out.

The cacat days.

I am very comfortable being with Irwan and around his family. I am just being myself ; the high-pitch voice, craziness, sarcastic person yet lovable. Cheh... When Irwan accept me for who I am (except the part that I hate doing house chores and am a workaholic) , I have confident that the r/s will last longer.. insyaAllah till marriage.

Happy moments @ Sentosa (:

Our addicted food and drinks:

Kebab rice - The must die-die must eat food whenever we go to beach road. Even this stall owner and the drink stall remember us. They know what we want!

2 years him in NS while in a relationship is not that bad afterall. Get used to it after few months. 25 months with him, he still talks a lot since day one we are together. And it's a good sign. I can't imagine being a guy who keep asking the same question and have no stories to tell. That's so bored!

Now, it's Abang & Putri new life:

"Alamak, Abg ni sibuk ar...Da tau aku gemuk, apasal pantat kau menyibuk plak!" - Putri

Sexy pose

Putri has been growing fatter than ever. She even snores when she sleeps. Once a week, she will jump on the wall. And every morning around 5, she will wakes everyone up with her meow. By 6pm, she will definitely be in the kitchen, waiting for her meal. If anyone of us forgets, she will "scream" loudly. She's so cuddly that you just don't want to put her down. (:

"Suke hati nampak, baring kat pantat aku. Aku tau lah, pantat aku sexy.." - Putri

King of the sofa

"Jap eh, kasi aku kentut dulu" - Abang

Abang has forever been the notorious "mat-rep" cat. He bullies Putri by licking her butt or by squeezing himself with her in a small compartment/area. At certain times, he and Putri will play hide and seek at home. If Abang can't find her, he will call out her name. But if Putri can't find him, she just sits one corner. Even though I felt like smacking his tiny flat cheeks at certain times, he is still a loyal and socialable cat. Which cat waits for his master infront of the door? Which cat loves to be pat on his head? Which cat loves seeking attention and will sit in the middle when there's family conversion? It's Abang; the big eye cat that wears thick eyeliner and have long bushy tail.

Awww....

The end!

Salam,
Rohani

Economic issue or Political issue?

2008-11-09T07:54:00.000-08:00

Salam all,

I am go going to repeat Financial Accounting. With over 20 slides per Problem and numbers filling in each slide, it really gives me a big headache. UT is on tomorrow and I am not prepare for it. Having an 'E' grade for UT1 has just given me a tight slap on my face. How I remembered, Carmelia and I was aiming for just a 'D' grade for Financial Accounting last semester. And we were over-excited once we achieve our aims, a contented D grade.

We just know in business, we are not the type of employee that will seat in one corner of the office, staring at the computer. We want to go out of the prison room and break the walls so that we can go out, meet new people, gain new opportunities and explore the world. We enjoy learning that way. However, tackling the numbers in papers is also very important to know where you stand and what it takes for the business to improve. We are not excel in it, yet.

Ouh gosh.. I am so going to repeat next year...

Both my best friends, Su and Carmelia are planning to further studies in University. Carmelia had go pursue a degree as both of her parents are highly educated. What's more, her dad is a master holder. While Su, on the other hand, excel in her Multimedia IT currently. She is doing very well in her studies, unlike Carmelia and I. I know, she can make it to University. While I...?

I told them I am going to look for a job and hopefully, have dreams to set up a business. I really wish that will happen. Both of them have concrete stuff to do after post-graduate in RP. While I am still not sure what I am going to do next. I still feel I am going to repeat one more year for Business Finance module. Die la..die la..

The newly opened Famous Amous was just set up in Lot One. I felt like quitting my job at Cheers and joining Famous Amous. I wish to have an experience in the F&B industry.

Carmelia read a book on Finance and she point out this phrase from the book,
"Inflation is never an economic issue. It's political issue."

We both agreed that it is so true. Why it should be economic issue since the government uses our money via taxes (GST). What's more, the government "steals" our money legally before we get paid. What we earn is what the government will get. Government spends what the citizens earn. And we both watch Get Real episod on Debt - where credit card users owe the banks thoudsands of dollars. Some were merely bankrupt, others went to counselling session whereby the counsellor said, "Get out of debt. Save money, clear your debt first". Carmelia said, "I wonder why financial literacy was not being taught by the counsellor".

Ok, enough Siti.

Salam,
Rohani

The pathetic social life

2008-11-04T17:55:00.000-08:00

Salam all

The new manager in the store I work in couldn't have been worse. She's so fussy over small things and always mention, "the system said.../follow the rules". With the glasses on her nose and wrinkle face, I am sure the rest of the staff will plead Hasinah (our previous manager) to come back.

Actually, the new manager treated me okay la.. but the others told me that they cannot work and take off as and when they want to. So now, is she changing the system of flexing working days or she follows it as she always said. When I asked them what do they did? They just kept silent. I always notice that certain people are loud when they are in groups or when talk behind people's back but when they face the person, they just kept silent. Just like my boyfriend.

I remembered when Irwan and I, in the train listening to music w/o headphones. It wasn't that loud and we only played 1 or 2 songs. That's it. A 18 or 19 year old guy purposely turn on the music on his handphone even louder. When we stop playing, he stop. So we try again. Once more, he did the same thing. He then later, place his handphone camera at us, I know that he is going to take a snapshot of us.

I then took out my handphone and take a snapshot of him (in which I didn't really snap) and said to him, "Are you taking our pictures and put it in your blog? I am taking it too....your pictures in a gay website!" He then stares at Irwan. Irwan actually did nothing. He just kept silent.

I stared at him but his eyes were too afraid to look back at me. I told him, "Are you a kid or an adult? If you are an adult, be like one." I added, "You are such a kitty cat, afraid to stare at girls"
Again, "oooo..look at your red eyes, I am so sure that you are going to try.. huhu... such a cry baby!"

He's like a stone. Keeping silent and yet eyes still sticks to Irwan. Irwan fall asleep aftewards. I asked him, "You want to play games? Let's play. Peek-a-boo!!" When we were about to alight, I came towards him and said, "Don't being a cry baby okay. Everything is going to be fine kid. Bye-bye!" I waved and did and action of wiping my tears to tease him.

Okay, I am bad. But who starts it first? I really dislike people to indirectly pick up a fight. If you don't like what we are doing, then face us. Be like an adult. How immature can Singaporean get when the last week newspaper stated, "Teachers wearing bikini is immoral". What the heck?
If she is a Muslim, then fine. But she's not and she have a right to do that. You mean every girls in the beach are immoral?

And another example of people keep complaining of an increase of public transport fares and utility bills. But buying a cigarette and branded stuff shouldn't be a problem at all. That's condircting isn't it?

Talking about cigarettes, I experience countless number of teenagers trying to buy it from the store I work in. When I asked for an I/C. Here's their reply:
1) Sorry, forget to bring.
2) Ah....must show ar?
3) Aiyah, don't worry, I'm 18.

My answers to them:
1) Ok everymind. You go home, take your IC then come back here. Then I'll see if I should sell it to you or not.
2) Duh, of course!
3) Where's the proof?
or if they still want to buy..
4) You asked your 18 and above 18years old friend to buy it for you and show I/C. Or I know what, you just ask anyone around la.

Some give sympathic face, others dissappoinment. But I never occurred those who rebel back. My friend had encountered that. But if they did it no, I make sure they will pee in their pants.

Whenever customer purchase only one goods, I will asked if they need carrier. Some of them pekak badak, wearing their earphone with a loud tune did not answer back. So I take a risk. I either give them carrier or no. When I dont' given them, "Carrier." "I've just asked you few seconds ago whether you need it. And you just kept silent so I take it as a no." If I give it, "I don't need carrier." I will answer, "Take it out yourself la".

I may have the potiential to be the worst customer service people every met. Sometimes, if the previous customer talk rude to me, I will let it out the next customer. "They always said customer is always right. But bad customer is never right." or "I wonder why we have feedback or complain box. But we ourselves don't have box to place our complains about customers."

Okay, i shall end here. In a rush.

Salam,
Rohani

When everyone accepts everyone to be prefect.... It ends up the other way round.

2008-10-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

I dislike people who indirectly insult me or anyone. I dislike people who thinks that they are too pious and looks down on others who are not.

Who are they to tell you not to wear head scarf anymore? Who are they to tell you that your prayers are not accepted? Who are they to tell you that you are already out of religion but in your heart you still have faith?

I am not talking about me or anyone else. Let this be objective.

I always realized that everyone expects every women who wear headscarf to be very pious and never every make a mistakes. When we make a simple mistakes, they will said, "Take out your tudung, you are not worth wearing it." Who are they to judge us without even asking why? They do not even know the reason we wear it in the first place. Some wear because they have to, but in their heart they know that are not ready.

If they are ashamed of looking at us in that manner, then don't look. Else, talk to us nicely. Do not raise your voice and said, "I am ashamed to look at them." Freak off, if you think that's the correct way to change people. You worsen the situation.

And if they finally take out the scarf. You will said, "What the heck. I am so ashamed. First, wear tudung. Now don't wear. How can like that?" Asked yourself, what have you done?

I am not trying to be mean. I remind, be objective. Accept people and you do your part to pray and hope they will change. Not insult. That's not how it should be.

I clearly remembered a true incident where my tuition leader told me last year. A repent tatooed guy walk into a place to pray. He could not take off his tatooed for a long time. And when he about about to pray, an old man stopped him and said, "Your prayers will not be accepted." That tataooed guy decided not to pray and walk out. In the first place, is he praying to that old man or to Him?

It's time to think and help. Not insult and walk away. It's not how it should be. If we made a mistake, help us and take us to the right way. Furthermore, we are brothers and sisters.

Regards,
Rohani

From the teacher's pet to facilatator's worst nightmare

2008-10-22T05:54:00.001-07:00

Salam all,

During my secondary school years, I was a teacher's pet. Being a hardworking, smart and obedient student in school, I received Singa awards twice and praises from the teacher. And today, in Poly, I am the worst student facilatator have to face with.

I argued with my faci yesterday. Twice. In the classroom infront of my classmates and in the lift, infront of everyone inside the lift. Being frank, I just don't like people to accuse me something that I did not do at all. My laptop lagged when I opened my gmail. I was about to close the window. Unfortunately, the faci came to my team's table and saw my laptop screen.
Faci: Siti, have you tried out the website?
I: Not yet.
Faci: Siti, why are you not doing your work? (looking at my laptop screen)
I: I'm doing la, my laptop lagging
Faci: Please be focus Siti. Don't do any other stuff. You can do it later.
I: I said my laptop lag, lag lah! What you want me to do?
Faci: Okay, I'll come back later

When he came back, I've already d/l my PS and WS but it takes time to open it.
Faci: Siti, have you read the WS?
I: Yah, opening. Wait.
Faci: What's wrong with your laptop?
I: Lagging la
Faci: Ouh, that's bad. Why not use my laptop?
I: Don't need la. Can wait.
Faci: Can't you see I have two laptops? You can use one of mine.
I: I said I don't need yours.
Faci: Nevermind, use mine.

He bring his other laptop to my table.
I (to my team members): Kite cakap tak nak, tak nak la.. orang tue ni tak reti bahasa ke?

Minutes later.. he came back,
Faci: Siti, have you open the site and look at the security certificate?
I: You laptop still lag. The internet is sooo slow, how can open the website?
Faci: Hmm, okay. Let's take a look at Carmelia's laptop.

Everyone gathered at Carmelia's laptop.
Faci: Do everyone see the security certificate expiry date?
Everyone noded.
Faci: Siti, do you see it?
I: Yah, of course.
Faci: What's the expiry date?
I: (date)
Faci: Is the certificate expired?
I: Yah.
Faci: So is the site secured if the certificate is experied?
I: No.
Faci: Why?
I: It's like you ate expired food, then you got sickness, stomachache..all that la. Same goes as the expired site. *roll eyes*

I end up not using his laptop because the laptop hibernate and I do not have the password to log on again since he left. I went out of class halfway.

The feeling of walking out from class was like going to heaven. Inside the class is like a prison with 4 white walls and a monster staring at me. Why he always ask me question and not the rest? I dragged myself everytime I enter any class for lesson. I keep looking at the time, hoping that time will fly fast so that I can get out of class as soon as possible. Just like I said, it's not me sitting in the class.

I watched the famous slimming and beauty saloon Mary Chia business success story yesterday on TV. Mary Chia has no education and was poor girl living the kampong life. Despite that, she is rich today without formal education from school.

What makes people rich is passion for something. I do not have passion in learning about IT Security and IT delivery. Why must it be a core module and it is compulsory for me to pass it even though I never like it at all? Why must I push myself to do something that I do not have passion for?

I am not saying education is not important. But education without passion is like eating an awful meal.

When I graduate from poly, I have plan to go for education that I have passion for. Passion motivates me. Passion keeps me going and nothing and will hinders me.

I got an F grade for yesterday. He still accuse me if IM-ing while I did not even sign on my MSN and tell me to give my parent's contact number immediately.

That's so primary and secondary school days. I am an adult. For goodness sake, why he need to talk to another adult about an adult?

Salam,
Rohani

Long Sleeves

2008-10-20T10:07:00.000-07:00

CLICK ON THE IMAGE TO VIEW SITE

Hi all,

deMetamorphosis is having 10th batch Long-Sleeves Pre-order! Long-sleeves pre-order is the most favourite pre-order while long skirts fall into 2nd place. Over 100 pieces of long-sleeves were sold since its launch in March 2008.

Thus, do place your order now before 28th Oct 2008!

Email to: deMetamorphozis@gmail.com

Thanks!

Signing off,
Rohani

23rd Monthsary

2008-10-19T08:45:00.000-07:00

Salam 'all..

It's my partner, Irwan & I 23rd Monthsary today. Within a blink of an eye, we have stay together that long and I really hope it will last longer despite all the arguments we had, our love can conquer it all.

It was a last minute plan. Just one night before the day, we thought of going Sentosa to picnic. Bought all the frozen food beforehand and cook it in the morning.

It's our very first time after more than 5 years since we last visit that place. $3 was worth it to travel in a big island. We proceed straight to Pahlawan Beach. Well, I would not type much, let the pictures do the explaination. Furthermore, it's been ages I last published our moments.

Taking the train to HabourFront.

In the Sentosa monorail.

Waiting for tram to Pahlawan Beach.

It has arrived!

In the beach tram

Pahlawan Beach's bridge

Hai..Panas terik nye, mata sepet.

Stingray.. Very jinak, can touch one!

Giant Japanese Crab

Jellyfish

Underwater World

Swam of fish

The Great White Shark...!

Dugong

The Dolphin Lagoon

The trip to Sentosa was great. We really did enjoy it! Plan to go there again one day, with lotsa cash because I really want to explore all the places there!

A month more to go and it will be our 2nd Anniversary! (;

Salam,
Rohani

Getting a job, owning a job and creating more jobs

2008-10-12T11:31:00.000-07:00

Salam everyone,

Selamat Hari Raya! Though I know it's rather late to say.

I've changed my blogskin and accidentally deleted all the links and codes. Looks like I have to search for it all over again.

Raya has been okay. I work half-day during the first Raya. It's because of the double pay. Anyway, my raya always starts in the noon. Thus, I work till noon. Muslim customers thought I don't celebrate it while non-muslim customers was shocked to see me work during this special occasion. I honestly told them I work because of the double pay. And this uncle laughed, "Haha...it's hard to you to get a boyfriend then." I was curious, "Why is that so?" "Because you are looking for the money." I nod my hate and said, "Of course."

I got a boyfriend anyway but I hate to say this, money is important too. Just like what rich dad said, "Money is not the most important thing in life but money does affect everything that is important."

Look at what just happened to United States and Europe, now it's affecting Singapore. How can US not be in a great debt of trillion of dollars when they are also trillions of retired baby boomers in which the government promise to support? I am not pretty confident they will fulfilled with their promise. I am not trying to say that government never fulfill promise but as a citizens, we must not be too dependant on them financially. They are also humans, unable to avoid making mistakes.

In 2009, getting the right job is pretty slim. Irwan and I will be working full time next year and hoping to get a suitable job. I wanted to become a teacher after graduating. However, I decided not to go to that path yet. The reason is if I cannot speak well, I cannot communicate with the students. I had in mind to work in a marketing or sales person based, so that I can brush up my communication skills and be confident talking to strangers. I want everyone listen to what I have to say with interest, not because they are force to. If I can polish that communication skills, then I wish to become a teacher. I don't wish to become one whom students sleeps while I teaching. I don't wish to become one if I don't change their educational and social life. I don't wish to become an educator in which students are force to learn. Because I am a student, I know how it feels to be stuck in a room of four walls.

Last semester, I never like Operating System. But because Mr.Rizal makes the lesson so interesting, I always looking forward going to class despite my non-favourite module. His lesson has always been inspiring and entertaining. That's what motivates us. That's where we learn new things without we forcing ourselves to learn.

Certificate is just like a passport. An entry to get a job. But what are you going to do in that job, is the life of whole new chapter, the beginning. In my heart, I know I will never get a job as an educator straight after graduation because I don't do academically well in my poly years. But I will be and fight for that position. Interview is all about marketing yourselves and fighting for your life for that job. It's not about what your have achieve in the past but what you will do best for the company (future). If I talking rot, please don't remind me because I blog what I currently feel.

Sometimes, before I went to sleep, I day dream. I dream establishing the business school (just like the Apprentice), big business and charitable organization. At certain times, out of the sudden Carmelia and I will just randomly say about our dream and how it going to be. How the shop is going to look like, is that location suitable. The rental, the space. How are we going to recruit? What our image is going to be like. Will the school is acceptable by public and govt? Etc. We may not do well in school, but we continue to dream because it's our passion that drives us to achieve our dream. No one can stop that except fate. Uncertainties do struck us, but we keep on going.

I hope that before I get married, I will fulfilled at least one of those dreams because I want my child to grow up seeing me being already successful rather that seeing me, tired old lady still on the way climbing up the corporate ladder instead of owning it.

Alright then, I type too much. Full STOP.

Salam,
Rohani

The Results

2008-08-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum all,

This week have been a tough week, especially for my best friends. Till now, I sympathized them. Just don't want them to get hurt.

FYP grades are out. Got a C. I really thought I am going to fail it. Nevertheless, I have a second thought of repeating the FYP 1 though I pass it. I thought that by working as a team, everyone lose and everyone wins together. Well, education system has never been fair...competition always occurs. It does motivates you and demotivates you at a certain times.

I am so contented when I got 2 D for my modules - Accounting & BPM. It's a conditional pass! It means I have a choice whether I want to repeat this module or not. Of course, not! The reasons is because I have no interest at all. And that's it! My GPA drop 1 down. And I am okay with it.

My team mates and I have started our FYP2 two weeks earlier. We learnt our lesson and wish not to repeat it again...the last-minute thing. We have to create Nokia N77 commercial using DBV-H technology; the 1 million over multimedia laboratory in RP. We just have our training yesterday and it was great! (: By the way, readers do help our team to fill up a short survery form about mobile phone:
Click Here to take survey
Thank you! (:

Salam,
Rohani

"Success is a journey, not a destination

2008-08-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum....

It's been months since I last blog an entry. I've thought of abandon it but somehow or rather, I wish to type an entry today. It's a summarize one.

21st months of togetherness.
Today, 19 of August 2008, marked our 21st monthsary. 4 more months and my relationship with Irwan turns 2 years old. It is so fast that sometimes I lost track of the number of months we are together. After a year, we tend to looking forward to the number of years instead of months. For 21 months, no break-ups no patch up. Still together no matter how huge the arguement is. I still do not know what makes me still holding on to him but all I know, I'm in loving with him every single day.

Year 3, Semester 1 reflection
I feel that I did not gain any new or special things during this year semester 1 school years. Since I changed class everyday, I hardly get to know my classmates. Almost 70% of of classmates, I totally forget their names the next lesson I come. To make it worst, sometimes I really forget what class I am in on that day. I have entered the wrong class before. Even for the last few lessons. And, I only remember one facilitator name, which is my supportive Marketing faci, Mr Lim. The rest, I totally don't bother to remember. I've argued with facilatators this year because I hated the say she phrase what she wants to say to me. I felt that I never talked to her nicely, even a short goodbye.

My team and I felt that we did not do well in FYP1 due to failure in time management. We only commited ourselves fully, 2 weeks before the submission DEAD-line. We had a thought that if one of us fail, we repeat our semester together. And we are already prepared for the worst, which is saving up money till 1.2k for the school fee if we had to repeat one more semester for FYP1.

This semester in school seems really pathetic till Carmelia & I felt that we should not sit in the class anymore.

deMetamorphosis Business
deMetamorphosis (http://demetamorphosis.multiply.com) has turned 5 months old since it opens on 1st March 2008. The business outcome is way better than our first food business, Simply Irrizestable. We learn from our mistakes and correct it. We love making mistakes because we learn new things and gain new opportunity in every mistakes we made. And that's how we improved ourselves and the business we are fully commited to.

There's ups and downs in this business, we do lose money and make money. Money is a game, but few people dare to play it. We do have late delivery of items due to restocking or supplier slow response. Fortunately, we did not received any huge complains from our customers.

We have taken part in 3 big events:
- Science Centre (Staffs day)
- Tampines East CC
- Kampung Fiesta at Arab Street ( advertise in Berita Minggu)

We failed in the Science Center event due to the location. Our sales barely reached $50.00. This was due to location. We improve slightly in Tampiness East CC event. Sales reached nearly $200.00. However, there wasn't large crowd. Finally, in our third event, sales reached $1K for a big 3 days event. This was a success because of location, timing, marketing, pricing, target customers and joint venture with other online business owners. It was a great learning journey of an online business to an offline one.

What touches me the most is that our customers who had purchased our stuff online before, asked where am I during the event itself. I am thrilled that they even remembered my name. I was not there on the full day event due to work and etc. However, I thank my best friends, Carmelia & Su for conducting the event smoothly with me not around.

We met new people, experience business owners and self-employed. On one of the event, there's a ceramah on a man who used to be a millionaire now bankrupt. However, he managed to climb back on track with just $400 in his hand. I felt that everyone can be financially dependent and free but they just failed to think big.

The Big Dream
Where can I learn the knowledge I gained carrying out this business in school? If there is, I learn to forget because in learning we can only remember 10% of what we read. Just take a look at the Learning Pyramid below:

I really felt that I obviously remember what I learn by doing it. Don't laugh at an university graduate if he/she had forgotten Primary 6 Maths. When I tutored Primary 6 Maths early this year, I stumbled because I totally forgot the formula.

It's not that the education system here is not good but it is our own responsibility to go beyond what we have learn in school. Education is a life-long journey remember?

My business partner, Carmelia and I do have big dreams. Once in a while, we do feel that we cannot achieve that dream because it seems impossible or we are not capable to realize the dream.

Our big dreams are:
- To achieve financial freedom by age 35 years old
- To make deMetamorphosis internationally known brand
- To set up franchises in Singapore, then to Asia, finally Western countries like Australia
- To bring up the name of Muslims Malay business, globally
- To introduce latest fashion of Muslimah apparels and accessories
- To help the less unfortunate by charity work beside donating more money
- To create more job opportunities
- By the age of 40 plus, we wish to set up a well-known private business school for pratical business experience like the show The Appretiance, Donald Trump.

Prada, LV, Gucci and etc are internationally well known women fashion product brand. Why can't we be like them too?

Everytime we have negative thinking, we read business books by experience business owners.
And we have time to reflect what we had read and the experience we gain so far. We know we cannot quit and cannot afraid to lose. If we lose, we must get up back again. We must win this game.

The ending
I shall end off this previous entry with a qoute:
"Success is a journey, not a destination." Ben Sweetland

Salam,
Rohani

1.5 years Anniversary

2008-05-22T05:49:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum...

1.5 years Anniversary

Irwan & I celebrated our 1 1/2 year (18th months) anniversary at the Singapore Zoological Garden. We took more than 50 photos but I am too lazy to upload all of it as it is time-consuming. Another 6 more months our relationship will be 2 years old. Time fly so fast. It's like yesterday I just got to know him. Memories will still be kept fresh in our mind. The outing was terrific! We ended it off by watching CONGKAK with his lil bro. Was not that scary as I thought it would be. It's been a great journey together with him. We fought, we cried, we grew up emotionally together. However, there's never been a boredom. I thank Irwan for all the planning he had made and love he showered me with. (=

FYP
FYP has been stress yet fun. Imagine we have done the progression till fifth week and after that, we realize we are out of track? On that week, we were so depressed that our progression slows down. However, we pick ourselves up the following week. Nevertheless, we have lost the momentum. My team mates and I go crazy everytime we think of FYP..we have a lot of things to catch up. Next week, figurine modeling.

Ok, im off..
Siti

Kucing yang soleh

2008-05-04T08:04:00.001-07:00

Salam 'all..

Kalau korang tak caya Abang adalah kucing yang 'soleh', ini buktinya...

Haha..! Pandai kan kucing aku posing...! Ni hanya gurauan saja, jangan ambil terlalu serius ye..

Salam
Rohani

Antara Cinta dan Ingin Dimiliki

2008-05-02T19:25:00.000-07:00

Salam' all!

I just done watching Ayat-ayat Cinta from my laptop. Absolutely great movie! It describes the love in Islamic value. It's out in the movie right now, go watch it..confirm worth it!

When watching this movie, I realized there's a big difference between love and wanting to be with someone. The man in this movie, love his future wife (wearing burda) although he barely know her. Same goes to the wife, vice-versa. The other woman, a Christian, in this movie has been a long-time friends with the man, they are neighbors. She fell in love with him but was utterly disappointed when she just found out he got married few days ago. She soon fell ill and was longing for him. The story goes on...

Love can be develop within few weeks, days or even hours even you barely knew he/she! I guess it's not how long you spend time together, but it's the feelings that counts. Longing for someone means you miss the time you both spend together and you want him to be beside you always, and that's when love comes in confusion.

Irwan & I knew each other for only a week before we are together till now. I don't know how it happens, the question just pop out off my mouth although I do not know him. We spend together only once a week or when there's Public Holiday. I realized that I do not need him to be with me for 24hours to feel the love, because I know love is still there. Chey wah, jiwang bangat sih..

Ok la, all of you...you guys must watch this movie ok!!

Salam,
Rohani

Is RP prepare us for the working world?

2008-04-24T04:56:00.000-07:00

Salam all,

It's my 3rd year in RP and everyone keep asking one another what they are going to do after graduate. Work or continue study? Some replied that the educational system in RP does not prepare them for the working world because of the lack of technical education given.

In year 1, I was impatiently looking forward to year 3 so that I finally feel that I am adult and be financially independent. Some of my friends from other school felt that RP is not a suitable school to get a good job with high pay. How can they evaluate the school they have never been into?

I may agree that RP does not give us sufficient technical education and grade given are only according to bell curve, even you score as low as 3/10 for UT, there's a chance you might not fail. We tend to forget what we have learn in last week lesson.

However, I felt that the educational system in RP give its student a life-long learning experience instead of 'learn to forget'. Have you ever forget how you should present? Have you ever forget how to do research? RP focus on presentation skills which other school does not really make it an important point in working life.

No matter how intelligence you are, how good is your product/service but you are not able to make use of your intelligence to present your product/service well, you are doomed to failure. Have you ever felt uninterested or bored when someone presenting? Especially for CE talks. When I signed up for a talk, I felt it was interesting. However during that talk, the presenter makes me lose my interest. He was just blindly reading the content off the slide. A presenter has to be interactive, connect to the audience.

Furthermore, critical thinking makes someone a genius rather than blindly memorizing the right answers that taught in most schools. That's why RP do research because analyzing and thinking are developed. People may replied..."but you may do off-track." So what if you go off-track when you have discover new things? People makes mistakes, discover new things and learn from it. As what Robert T.Kiyosaki said, "Skills makes you rich, not theories."

I dislike Business Process Modeling module which is my core module this year. My friend's classmate asked the facilitator, "Why we need to learn BPM?" She answered, "It's a format you need to follow..." She does not really answer the student's question. What is the importance of BPM to business, how BPM helps us in life and working world? Why need BPM? The reason I dislike BPM because it teaches us how to be a robot - 'Things you have to follow'.

Marketing module is my favorite module so far because it is based on critical thinking rather than finding the right answer. There's no right or wrong in this module. It's how well you present your answer. However, I wish my facilitator has experience in business. He is an employee of a business company thus his perspective is mostly based on employee's view. The great thing about Carmelia's Marketing facilitator, he is an experience businessman. He was talking based on experience, not a view of an employee which most likely, does not have the emotional experience in business.

Thus, is RP prepare us for the working world? Yes, I would say to the certain extend as a good presenter, effective team member and critical thinking. RP educational system is similar to Japan educational system. That's why Japanese are creative and by being creative, they become rich. Well, we should be open-minded. I guess it will take time for us to accept the different educational system. Maybe it will be a popular school one day, who knows?

Salam,
Rohani

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Long Sleeves

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